I hope the appointment with your psychologist goes well today (?) and I'm glad that you've got sorted on some good medication now, I hope it really helps you :)
Thank you all, yes I'm about to go in to the appointment.
There should be a disability service but as far as I'm aware I don't think there is a fund or a lot they can offer. I was linked in to my last uni s disability service. They used to automatically tape lectures which was so handy but at post grad and this new uni they don't seem to do that. I guess I could enquire!
What makes you think you won't make it through this?
You made it through other hard times before, you managed 5 (I want to say 5) years without self harming you are an amazing person who can conquer anything.
I don't. The crisis person is telling me to get medical help immedtiately. Should have realised their duty of care would make them say that, even though I've done NO damage.
edit: we've agreed I can call some nurse helpline and then afterwards i can go back to crisis chat. So that was pretty unhelpful!
Now I'm certain I can't reach out for help or they'll take me to hospital again and I can't have that. I can't.
Last edited by Snow White. : 09-08-2013 at 11:38 AM.
I'm so sorry to see you're struggling so much right now Aimee, you're such a lovely person, so caring and supportive and friendly, and you deserve so much happiness in your life.
Well done for going on crisis chat, are you going to get medical help like the crisis person said, or is there anyone else that you could ask for support to help you stay safe? How did it go seeing your psychologist?
I'm here to listen if you need someone. You will get through this, this awful feeling will pass, and you will feel safer and more ok again. And until then, there are people here, and in real life, to help you, you're not alone. xx
Edit: Posted too slowly, so just seen what you said above regarding medical help, so feel free to ignore that part of my reply!
Well done for going on crisis chat, are you going to get medical help like the crisis person said, or is there anyone else that you could ask for support to help you stay safe? How did it go seeing your psychologist?
Thank you Liv x
I'm not getting medical help because it isn't necessary. I suppose I could take my evening medication which might make me sleepy and calm this down.
Do you have a favourite tv programme you could watch? When I'm feeling alone I put on Gilmore girls and its like having my sisters about, probably sounds lame but it helps me.
What type of things help to distract you from these thoughts, could you try some activities that keep your hands busy, or some puzzles to keep you mind busy.
I'm watching some NCIS now I'm thinking maybe I could go to bed and read as I am reading a novel. I'm just debating between the urge of trying again or being good. I KNOW I need to be good cause this shit has to stop.
But at the same time sitting in the dark room I thought I just want to kill myself.
Not well. I just want to die but I can't do it why can't I do it.
So I'm calling a helpline maybe they will help. Just on hold now.
I need them you say something, anything so I am not alone.
Hope they answer soon.
I wish I could take away your pain for you.
I have a mantra for when I'm low... you cannot live tomorrow if you die today.
Keep fighting for a tomorrow when you feel a little less low than today,
a tomorrow when you feel almost right
a tomorrow when you believe you are as fantastic as you really are.
