no. that was the right thing to tell people. He should never have done what he did, if he hadnt done any of that you would have had nothing to tell about. His fault. He knew the consenquences that people who do that stuff get.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
but he did and I had to tell people and I didnt want to. I was forced to tell them. I didnt want to. I feel bad sometimes cause I know if I didnt say aything, he wouldnt be like this.
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
"but he did"- right. HE made the choice to do bad things to you. He knew it was very wrong. He knew what could happen. You don't need to feel bad. I know emotions concerning all this stuff is hard to understand/deal with/accept/fill_in_the_blank though.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Libz, you said it yourself: he messes up your mind. That's just one of the many reasons you should not say you 'let him', and one of the many more reasons why it is not your fault. *gives you a big hug* And, as teardownoldwalls said, there are many hard things that you go through as a result of all of these terrible emotions. I just hope that one day, you are able to sort through all of them and come to believe that it really isn't your fault.
(This was the last one of my subscribed threads I clicked on/responded to; I'm just avoiding doing this tonight. Er, at least I was.)
It's – sort of – not my fault I thought I was brainwashed by you, and it's – sort of – not my fault I thought I was in love with you.
It's not my fault you called me names when I started dating your friend four days after you "broke up with me" (because apparently, the day after you broke up with me, you said we were never really going out in the first place \: ); he was my first true love, not you, not my first 'boyfriend', but him. So take that thought and ponder for a while.
I'm all P.O.'d now. ><
Sometimes the best way to hold onto something is to let it go. - Anon
"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failure's all you've known/
Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go/Let it go"
-Linkin Park, Iridescent
I understand what you're saying to the extent my ability to goes. Is it kind of at that point where you want to say it's completely not your fault, but you just can't yet?
Thanks, by the way. :]
I appreciate the hugs.
Sometimes the best way to hold onto something is to let it go. - Anon
"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failure's all you've known/
Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go/Let it go"
-Linkin Park, Iridescent
OiElloKatty - I dont know honestly. I just know resons to both sides but agree more with it is than it isnt. Its just frusturating though. I guess I want to be able to say it is not but things I said and did make me not believe it isnt. The only thing I really have to say it isnt is my age. 6 and 7 and 8. And I think I knew it was wrong but if I did, why did I let it persist. I dont really know... Sorry.
Your welcome... *More BIG HUGS*
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation/You build up hope but failure's all you've known/
Remember all the sadness and frustration/And let it go/Let it go"
-Linkin Park, Iridescent
