Shadowedsoul, I miss you and long road - hang in there please!! You are worth another day. And yeah the people around you would be devastated, not just hurt. I'm out of town right now but just wanted to say please stay safe. Hugggs. I'll be back on later.
can someone on here please help me... I'm feeling hopeless and I don't know what to do anymore, it's been 26 days cut free and I really don't want to mess that up but i don't know how I'm going to handle.
Hey I'm feeling pretty hopeless myself at the moment but if I can help I will. well done on 26 days!! is there anything you want to talk about? hang in there.
Im not going to do anything stupid, I won't overdose or anything I actually haven't tired to kill myself in quite sometime, over a year, but cutting has a hold on me and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm in a partial hospitalization program at a psych hospital near here. I have grp m-f 8-3. I'm a horrible lier and they will find out if I cut and kick me out of the program.
I want to cut because it's what i do, I've been doing it for so long, theres really nothing wrong I've had a somewhat good day... ugh I hate myself...
I hate myself too. I had a good day too now I'm feeling like this. I don't know, It doesn't get easier but we just have to keep fighting somehow. I hope the program is helping you. I've been in one too. It helped for a while, but obviously I'm still here so..(: Try not to cut for yourself too, cos you deserve better.
Oh my gosh :( overwhelming feelings of wanting to do it. I'm so sorry, I'm just adding to the list on here. I just need to talk. I can't even say it properly. I would never have even contemplated this two years a go. It was just a thought that bobbed around in my head. Now it wants me to do it. I'm so tempted. Just to make it all go away. I can't even cry anymore :(
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
Pixiedust... Hugs! You said "it" wants you to do it. What is "it"? I'm sorry you are feeling so suicidal. That's awful. Is there anywhere you can go that is safe? Emergency? Call a helpline? It sounds like you need some help right now love. Do you want to tell us what triggered it?
Pixiedust, you need to talk to someone professional now. A helpline or something similar.
Just remember for now, killing yourself won't make this go away, it will just make you go away. Try to remember a time when you were truly happy and having a good laugh. That was a good day. If you die now you will never have something like that again. It is worth it for that sense of pleasure.
You don't need to apologize either. The people on this forum are happy to help, we know how it feels to get that low. You are worth caring about and trying to support.
Please give it a day and see how things are tomorrow.
I'm feeling a bit better now. thank you, I think I just needed time for that to pass. But I know it will come back again. I mean the feelings of wanting to do it. I say it because I don't like calling it what it actually is, but I mean dying. This happens though, the feelings just come and go. I think it's a sign that I'm really not happy, and I don't mean happy in a 'oh everything in my life is going fine right now because my parents love me' way. Also, I tend to talk in a way that makes no sense because I don't like to face up to what it all actually is. Ergh. Dw though I won't do anything, I don't have the guts.
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
Hugs Shadowedsoul it's terrible that you are suffering like this! Are you feeling really unsafe? Like you need to go to emerg? Please don't hurt yourself. Talk to me.
hugs darkpelt, if okay.
yeah im feeling unsafe, but there is no way im going to emerg? it crazy i know what i want to do, really struggling not to. feel very triggered.
