im sorry i have to let some more of this out its going around and around in my head and right now i wish i could just make it stop
Once she had hit me with the belt she left me laying there for what seemed like forever, she came back and started hitting me with the belt again, then got something and rubbed it into my bottom it stung so much and made me scream, making her more mad, she took the belt and started hitting me again on the bottom and the backs of my legs, i was crying and begging her to stop she just continued to do what she was doing telling me to shutup how bad i was and how she wished my mother had never had had me, she said that i was evil and she was going to beat the evil out of me, then she got something and put it into my bottom, it hurt so much but i just lay there not making a sound, she left it there and started hitting the backs of my legs again, she stopped hitting took the thing from my bottom, untied me and told me to lay on my back on the floor, she sat on the floor beside me and started touching me down there, then she pushed her
*stops* sorry this is to much i shouldnt be doing this im sorry shouldnt be talking about this *decides to now stay quite* sorry
Tigereyes, you did was a really brave for writing this about your aunt..Your aunt was horrible things to you..She should have been more loving and caring aunt to you but now, she wasn't not nice at all..I'm glad that my two aunties are never hurts me or doing the bad things to me..They are both are very loving and caring for me always will be.
Did you report the police about your aunt for what she did it to you? Haven't you told someone about it yet?
If you ever need me so I'll be here sometimes..Just trying something fun at your home and it is okay to think of the memories if you are trying writing this stuff out so I won't mind doing it so..
Hi. I don't think I've ever posted in this board before. Can I come in?
I just have a general question. Where is the boundary between discipline and abuse? I was always made to believe that it was done out of motherly love, and to make me a better person, but love shouldn't cause a person to fear their parent, should it?
Hi Oxymoron, Yes, you can come in anytime you wants to..
Well, that's a good question sweetie, but most parents did abuse for what they did to you was horrible things..
Do you wants to share with your stories with us? if you don't wants to so we won't bite you at all..I think it's good to take the stuffs out for your feeling about it..
Maybe I will later, not at the moment. Thanks for welcoming me anyway.
If you don't mind, could I ask you to expand slightly on this point: "most parents did abuse for what they did to you was horrible things.."? I didn't really get what you were saying.
Well, at some point, Most parents are getting disiclpline and abuse by the kids on their hands because you needs to be punished or something bad til the parents found out what you did with the stuff..yeah, something like that..Love doesn't mean that fear the most parents do but they could loves you so much as a parents to you or was it?
Sorry, sweetie, I was trying to figure it out about your questions about it..But, you didn't do anything wrong with that cause it's parent's faults for what they did to you but you didn't do anything bad with the stuffs at your home..
Tigerseyes you have done a FANTASTIC job of talking, and you can tell anything here, nothing is too much or inappropriate. You're not doing any wrong getting it out and we're always here to listen. *offers hugs if you want*
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I agree (:
I have to deal with talking to the police about it now... Unfortunately when I told my therapist about the abuse she told the police (I didn't know), and yesterday I got a letter through saying I had to talk to a police officer about it because when they were notified they automatically opened a case, so now I have to close it ):
Why don't you look up some older posts when you told us what happened. Then maybe you can give that to them as a statement. That might be a little easier than telling it all over again. *hugs*
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Ah yeah. I'll print them off. I have to sit with them alone wish someone could hold my hand when they were talking to me. I know they're gonna be really picky and ask me about everything and about her.
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Imma take my cat, he'll comfort me. She knows I don't wanna press charges, cos I can't really, it'd be my word against hers and she'll be like "I was a kid I didn't know what I was doing, she's lying" etc.
"Yay, *name of the street I live in*"
"Do you like our street? No traumas?"
Is he messing with me? I ****ing told mum about how she broke my spirit, I ****ing told dad about what my brother did to me, and yet he is suppressing & denying everything as always.
Can I have a hug, or maybe a little support?
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every bloody detail, which means I'll have to tell them everything, and it'll just burn in my mind again.
wish someone could hold my hand when they were talking to me. I know they're gonna be really picky and ask me about everything and about her.