Oliver, sorry you are struggling, but just tell yourself how well you have done in that year. im having similar stresses at moment, this time last year i was going back to work for the new term, lasted a few days then lost it and ended up on a psych ward. now the new term starts again on Monday and i can help but worry as to how i will cope this time round. but we will both get there im sure.
morning colour, how are you?
morning to everyone else x
Qualified Peer Support Worker (2017)
current mental health diagnoses: depression, PTSD, GAD, self harm, bpd
current meds (as at Feb 2017): , thyroxine, metformin, iron, b12, vit d, atenolol, Butec, Naproxen, Nefopam, Lanzoprazole, Bupropion, quetiapine (prn)
Wendy, ty. I'm sure you'll do well this new term! I'm glad you have are feeling optimistic about this! :) I'm kind of worried too..first term of junior year in HS is starting in two weeks, and yeah I guess I'm really really anxious.
*glomps Colour* How are you hun?
Rach, I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling so well and I really hope you'll get better. Memories are in the past and you can't let them ruin your life now.*sends hugs over*
Oliver, try not to think about it too much. It's just like I told Rachael, memories are in the past..I know it's hard not thinking about those things, but maybe you can keep distracted and find something fun to do? Watch something? Play something? *hugs* I really hope you'll feel better soon!
Mark, I'm glad you had fun with your family! How are you today? :)
Angel, I don't like summer holidays that much either. I mean sometimes they are fun..but I can't keep myself distracted..and if I had school work I could just keep busy and not think about stuff..
I'm so-so. I dissociated a little yesterday(though it wasn't too bad). And I just can't stop cutting these days I guess..I don't know why..I'm not feeling too bad or anything like that. But my mood just seems to go down whenever something seemingly stupid happens. I hate it. But I guess I'm coping.
I'm sorry to hear you're not great either*hugs*...Nothing specific happened to me(other than the *episode* I had a few nights ago when I cried on the street and I dissociated pretty badly..but I'm trying to forget about that, not thinking about it too much)..it's just that I get sad all of a sudden and every little thing upsets me. It's strange..and sometimes I just dissociate out of the blue. Maybe I should see a psych when I get back...
What about you, Kat? Can you talk about why you're not feeling ok?
Lucky - dissociation sucks doesnt it. i havent left the house on my own for 3 weeks as last two times ended up with dissociative fugue where had no idea what was going on, where was or anything, ended up with police involvement. this is another worry about going back to work. but, my boss has just invited me for lunch, so going to test the water with that one later.
kat, sorry you arent feeling great, anything in particular?
how are you razor?
Qualified Peer Support Worker (2017)
current mental health diagnoses: depression, PTSD, GAD, self harm, bpd
current meds (as at Feb 2017): , thyroxine, metformin, iron, b12, vit d, atenolol, Butec, Naproxen, Nefopam, Lanzoprazole, Bupropion, quetiapine (prn)
Wendy, I'm sure everything will be OK. and I hope lunch with your boss goes well :)
Jo, I'm so-so. Actually right now, I'm not feeling so bad, but my moods just change so quickly..like today I woke up OK, then I wasn't OK, then I was OK, then I was feeling horrible, went back to my room, cut, then I felt OK again..ugh. Like a roller-coaster! But now, I'm not feeling so bad..I just hope I won't start to dissociate any time soon. :S
hi razor, on the whole, in comparison to many, i guess im ok thanks.
lucky - i get that with moods too, i switch so quickly. its one of the symptoms of bpd unfortunately. i hate it, i felt much more in control when i was just severely depressed all the time. i feel so much more unstable now.
Qualified Peer Support Worker (2017)
current mental health diagnoses: depression, PTSD, GAD, self harm, bpd
current meds (as at Feb 2017): , thyroxine, metformin, iron, b12, vit d, atenolol, Butec, Naproxen, Nefopam, Lanzoprazole, Bupropion, quetiapine (prn)
Ugh, I've always been really moody, but it seems like it's getting worse these days. I don't know why but I WANT to receive the diagnosis. I feel like, if they tell me I actually don't have bpd, then there won't be any reason why I am like this. It's strange.
ah colour, its such a shame we have to put our health in jeopardy for the sake of money isnt it. so wrong. please weigh up the pros and cons before taking on a second job though. but, ultimately only you can know what is right for you and your situation.
Qualified Peer Support Worker (2017)
current mental health diagnoses: depression, PTSD, GAD, self harm, bpd
current meds (as at Feb 2017): , thyroxine, metformin, iron, b12, vit d, atenolol, Butec, Naproxen, Nefopam, Lanzoprazole, Bupropion, quetiapine (prn)
The problem is, i can't afford to stay here if I don't get more work. I guess i need to look into benefits and things, but I just don't know where to start with how to get them. I went to the job centre to ask them and they gave me a list of phone numbers and sent me on my way. I hate phone calls =S
I need to stay in this town as this is where all of my treatment for MH and my knee is being done, and I just can't move home to where my parents are =S
