my parents will be home in a few hours, the good news is I get to see my mum and not be alone in this house, the bad news I have to see my father.
I also need to get a referral for a scan for my knee as the nurse at minor injuries last week thinks I have damaged my cartilage.
This weekend is manchester pride and I am marching in the parade and going to a young persons prom, really excited as I missed pride last year because I was sectioned.
*hugs all*
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Evening all *waves* How is everyone today? I've had quite a good day. I brought in with me some card making material so I did some rubber stamping (card making) this morning, went to a CBT group on anxiety and then art this afternoon. I didn't do much in art as they hardly have any materials. I did have a nap earlier so feel quite refreshed. I haven't got anything planned for this evening.
What has everyone been up to today?
When life gets you down do you know what you've gotta do?
Session started off badly - she accidentally double-booked, so she could only talk for 30 minutes. She asked if I was upset about it. I said no. She told me she could sense my anger, and I told her I was already angry. I talked about how I feel she's dismissing me because she keeps telling me I'm ok when I'm clearly not, and that I get the impression she's sick of me.
She told me she doesn't dismiss me, she just can't get into everything with me completely, because if she did, she'd have to end up contacting my next of kin and the hospital to tell them she's worried about my safety.
She reassured me that she believes I mean everything I say to her. She told me that she's not sick of me, that she's fought long and hard to keep seeing me and she's been seeing me longer than any of her other clients (it's meant to be short term therapy, I've been attending almost 6 years).
She's going to see me next week because she double-booked, says I will have her undivided attention for an hour, and even gave me a hug before I left.
I finished the article. It's about the benefits of pets for people with BPD. I've sent it to the admin, waiting to see if it's what he wants, or if I have to write something else.
Last edited by trechu : 23-08-2012 at 08:05 PM.
Reason: spelling
Apparently my article wasn't "bad", but he's edited it somewhat and wants a catchy title. Can't bring myself to read the edits yet, because I'll either hate it and therefore hate him, or I'll love it which means what I wrote wasn't good enough and I'll hate myself. I didn't even want to write an article, I only did it because he was desperate and as a moderator I felt some sort of responsibility to try and help.
You know, I didn't even intend to become a moderator. It just sort of happened. I'm mostly ok with moderating, although sometimes I hate it, but I just don't know how I get myself into these things.
I hope your knee is okay Oliver. Also I hope it goes okay with your parents being at home. Have fun at pride
Glad you've had a good day Jo
Rachael I am glad you ended up being able to sort things out with your therapist. Also well done for writing the article, I know it's tough when someone edits what you wrote but it can give you feedback for next time. Instead of it being a let down let it be a learning experience.
How are you Colour?
How are you Lucky?
Sarah can you get a refferal to see someone trough your doctor?
I'm struggling
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Sarah- maybe your psych that you see could refer you (the nice lady one?) otherwise it will be your GP but I doubt they will if your already under a cmht? Could you ask for a cpn? I've found my cpn really supportive and helpful every week.
Kat- sorry to hear your struggling. Could you try having a easy day and keep yourself really distracted so you don't harm yourself?
Colour- is anything specific up that's worrying you or something? Just try to keep distracted and busy so you don't harm yourself either. Maybe go for a walk or meet up with some friends?
Heaven- is there anyone you could call over and keep you company and cheer you up?
Rachael- the article sounds really good :). How are you feeling today?
Jo- are you at the specialist unit now? How are you doing?
Oliver- have a nice time at the prom and Pride :). Pride is usually really fun and a chance to get really smashed - but in London we usually have to buy tickets to go the clubs or pubs afterwards. You might want to check on that?
How are you mark?
Sorry that talk wasn't good with your dad Lucky. But I'm glad things have been sorted between you and your BFF :).
Angel and Wendy - how are you two today?
Ballerina123 - My lovely superstar
Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
this thread moves so quick, im so sorry, i cant keep up. feel like i just come here to dump and run. so sorry.
crap hospital appointment yesterday. was hoping to talk to my counsellor about it today as no one else asks or cares, but she has just text to say she cant make it today. she is on holiday next week, so wont see her now for 2 weeks. my cpn isnt around for a couple of weeks either so got no one to talk through my worries with. sucks. why are they there when you dont need them, but seem to be awol when you are really struggling :(
Qualified Peer Support Worker (2017)
current mental health diagnoses: depression, PTSD, GAD, self harm, bpd
current meds (as at Feb 2017): , thyroxine, metformin, iron, b12, vit d, atenolol, Butec, Naproxen, Nefopam, Lanzoprazole, Bupropion, quetiapine (prn)
*hugs for everyone*
I'm sorry some of you aren't doing so well. I really hope things get better.
Didn't fall asleep until 4, slept terribly, and woke up at 10.
Anxiety hit as soon as I was awake. Just that general "I'm awake, I have another day I somehow have to get through" anxiety. I hate it, I honestly feel like I'm going insane at the moment.
