“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
welcome Emm I am Tom. We always like now people posting. Make yourself at home here.
I don't have any advice for you at the moment.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
Hi...
er so my boyfriend is taking me back to my old church this evening (I'm going on Saturday to avoid people who might recognise me on Sunday), it's been about 2 years since I stopped going, and since then I've had so many nervous breakdowns, a few suicide attempts, some big mistakes, some sexual assaults (and a resulting pregnancy and miscarriage) and I'm so scared... :(
I've prayed to God a few times in the last year, but I don't know whether or not I meant it, if that makes sense, or whether I was just doing it because I've always done it. I want my faith back, but I don't know if I even deserve it? Sorry to just launch in and say all that, I'm just a bit frantic.. plus my boyfriend isn't religious, he is only going because he knows it always meant a lot to me.. but what if I, like, start burning when I touch the holy water or something :'(
i feel like a hypocrite. i go round saying that i believe in god etc and yet i harm my body. i know of about three verse which says not to harm my body, ( i know cos i was telling them to a youth group girl today) and yet i do, how can i tell someone not to and what the bible says and still do this myself? argh- such an idiot.
The BRAVEST thing
I ever did was CONTINUING MY LIFE when I wanted to die.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
I've prayed to God a few times in the last year, but I don't know whether or not I meant it, if that makes sense, or whether I was just doing it because I've always done it. I want my faith back, but I don't know if I even deserve it? Sorry to just launch in and say all that, I'm just a bit frantic.. plus my boyfriend isn't religious, he is only going because he knows it always meant a lot to me.. but what if I, like, start burning when I touch the holy water or something :'(
That's really one of the awesome things about God... when we pray, God wants us, our honesty, our open hearts, even if our hearts are full of uncertainty and doubt. Romans 8:26 says "We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." Even if you feel like you don't even know if God got it, he knows just what you meant. He cares about even the small details in your life because he loves you.
You definitely are deserving of God's grace, he wants to build your faith and for you to trust him. Start out by praying and telling him how you feel, and asking him to help you again. He listens, you've gotta trust.
Hi,
Ive been a christian since around November. My friend got me to believe there was a God and that he loved me enough to help me. She got me involved in a Life Hurts God Heals program which should be helping. The whole believing in a higher power is soo new to me. Ive tried to pray but it doesnt seem like they have been answered.
Oh, and is Self-injury a sin? Will God turn me away because of it?
The moment you feel like giving up, remember all the reasons you held on for so long.
So... I leave for camp friday and won't be back until august 14th...
I'll be without phone or computer.
ok salanna
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
this has been my new favorite song at the moment- thought id share it with you. its by jars of clay.
"Much Afraid"
Empty again
Sunken down so far
So scared to fall
I might not get up again
So I lay at your feet
All my brokenness
I carry all of my burdens to you
[Chorus:]
All of these things
I've held up in vain
No reason nor rhyme
Just the scars that remain
Of all of these things
I'm so much afraid
Scared out of my mind
By the demons I've made
Sweet Jesus, you never ever let me go
Oh, sweet Jesus, never ever let me go
So happy to love
Yet so far to go
You lead me on to where I've never been before
The BRAVEST thing
I ever did was CONTINUING MY LIFE when I wanted to die.
hi, I just joined this website and came across this thread,im karen and im 16, i used to have a really strong faith but when i started to self - harm, i stoped going to youth fellowship and church. i dont know why but i felt so gulity going to church and keep thinking how much God hated me because i self- harmed. when i tried to stop self-harming, my friend invited me to her church and im still going there regularly:)_
No worse than anywhere else -- If you're a Christian believe that he loves you and has saved you, God isn't going to turn you away when you need him. A lot of times are prayers aren't answered when we want or in the way we want them to be, but we have to trust that he knows best and because he loves us it's ultimately working for good.
Well technically you don't want to cut anywhere. If a person does it to effect some drama or to try to slander God then the intention might be worse but I don't think God cares more. People are told to pray in their rooms in private so that's the ultimate sanctuary really. About churches and temples we have this:
ACTS 7
"48 However, the Most High does not live in buildings made by human hands. As the prophet says, 49“‘Heaven is my throne, and the earth is my footstool. What kind of house can you build for me,’ declares the Lord, “or what place is there in which I can rest? 50 It was my hand that made all these things, wasn't it?’”
So God would be no more in church than in your room at home. Of course there is the part about people gathering enhance Christ's presence but you could do that in a parking lot as well - or at your house/flat etc.
Last edited by Isoverity : 22-05-2009 at 01:58 PM.
Hurtwillneverheal i will answer your question when i have more time
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
That's ok a little twinge of regret is a good thing (blessed are those who morn etc etc - that was never about funerals lol). Just dont be too upset and too sad because that's ego and you'll get blocked from natural sorrow and then restoration to your dignity. Your own conscience will gently tell you your wrong and a gentle sadness will bring you back to center. Going "omg I am so bad!!1111" is like trying to outshout conscience - like we can pronounce ourselves "bad" before we let conscience do it. Its a funny sort of denial. A person can stay stuck like that for years and think they are doing well by being sorrry when they can be creating their own stumbling block despite best intentions. So regret and sorrow for errors is good but not to much (don't forget the "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls" part [Matthew 11:29-30]. If your beating yourself up a lot your overdoing)
Last edited by Isoverity : 22-05-2009 at 10:55 PM.
