Tell Your Secrets! And Be Honest!! - Page 136

River of Dreams · 07-09-2009, 02:23 AM

I was going to steal money from my grandmother and some of her crystal jewellery and sell it... lucky for her she had moved it.

I can't stop lying to them.

I have fantasy worlds in my head. Worlds where things have happened to me so I have a reason for being like I am. I lie awake at night imagining every detail of these worlds, I pretend during the day that these worlds are real. Conversations and scenarios run through my head.

DestroyMe · 07-09-2009, 03:39 AM

I would kill to be anyone but me

The Mad Hatter · 07-09-2009, 03:45 AM

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lozza · 07-09-2009, 08:17 AM

I couldnt tell you because it would have interfered with her plans
sorry
but she wants this too bad

Jem6 · 07-09-2009, 08:23 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Belt

That was so powerful. I love this thread.

Mine.... I want him to suffer for making me feel so ugly. I want him to feel ugly for a day. Hurt. The same. With an effort to breathe because he knocked the wind out of me. And I feel a bit cruel for it. But not that cruel.

Pnuemonia[Blue] · 07-09-2009, 06:05 PM

I love her. Yes it's weird and yes it's stupid and probably gross to some people but I really love her.

I love her eyes, playing with her hair, the little plaits she puts in her hair to stop it frizzing. I love the way her lip curls when she doesn't understand and the way her eyes roll back sometimes when she's speaking. I love her quirks and how she just doesn't stop talking. I love her smell and when she holds my hand, or cuddles me when I have panic attacks.
I love that smile she gives me when she walks in to the group late. I love that she's always late.

I even love the things that annoy me about her, like her persistant offering of food and drink when I go to her house, the way she always says sorry, how she blames eveything on her age, her insecurities over the smallest things, oh and how she spends AGES at craft fairs.

I love her bead obsession and how she randomly pulls out cucumber with salt, I love when she cuts up apples for me and gives me weird arse films to watch and I miss her.
I want her to come home.

ladybug · 07-09-2009, 06:18 PM

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ReticentRose · 07-09-2009, 06:47 PM

Seeing you look back for me and wait to make sure we could sit together made me feel warm for the first time in a good while; and I'm glad, even though it shouldn't have done and the only thing it proves is that I was looking at you again.
It's a little sad that you probably only turn to me because you don't want to be around her, but... I can deal. I don't deserve to have you look at me anyway.

Oh, and by the way, I think you're beautiful. Sorry for being a burden.

dying_to_be_perfect · 07-09-2009, 11:27 PM

I love you!! simply and whole heartedly, you are everything to me!!

in-a-pickle · 07-09-2009, 11:54 PM

i just want help. i want to cry. i want to get rid of my hurt and pain. i want to be free.
i am getting help. i can't find the tears to cry with. i don't know how to get rid of my hurt and pain. i dont know how to be free.
I don't want to live in guilt. i don't want to live in dispaire. i want to be a nice person. i want to be pretty.
if i live without guilt, i end up feeling guilty. i dont know how to start living without dispair. i am not a nice person and i dont know how to start being a nice person. i try to be pretty only to be told i'm ugly.
i want to be confident. i want to help others. i want to be appreciated. i want to be told 'well done'.
I lack all my confidence. i cant help others if i cant help myself. nobody appreciates me. i cant do anything to please anyone.
I want to feel loved. i want to be perfect. i want to fight this. i just want to be free...

DestroyMe · 08-09-2009, 12:17 PM

it hurts that my family can watch a movie about someone with mental health issues and think that THEY need help but the second I ask for it, I don't get shit, and they thing that the way I cope with things will just go away...
and at the same time I don't seem to care because that means I can find better, more stronger ways to hurt myself...and that scares thes hit out of me

_plastic · 08-09-2009, 01:40 PM

I think i relapsed =/

Pnuemonia[Blue] · 08-09-2009, 08:31 PM

I'm scared I'm going snap soon

DestroyMe · 08-09-2009, 08:38 PM

I want to cuddle :(

toblerone · 08-09-2009, 10:16 PM

I can't help feeling it was my fault I was raped

DestroyMe · 08-09-2009, 11:21 PM

I hate this..I want a new brain...
even though I was only 11 I still feel like I caused the molestation, which does nothing to consider that when I was raped a half a year ago I still feel like it was my fault, because I handed him the alcohol

Pnuemonia[Blue] · 08-09-2009, 11:49 PM

She talks to me about finding a partner that'll love her and spend the rest of her life with her
Truth is: She'll never find any man that loves her half as much as I do.

DestroyMe · 08-09-2009, 11:50 PM

I feel like the only two people that really care about me ar my best friend and my g/f, everyone else just says they do.
and that hurts

beautiful.disaster. · 09-09-2009, 03:28 AM

i feel better when i don't SI. but at the same time, i feel better when i do. sometimes i dont have a reason. my arms just miss the sting, my eyes miss the sight of blood, and my body aches from missing my 'friend'.

i miss her too.

MaddieLyn · 09-09-2009, 03:33 AM

im scared of being in a relationship..
but im not scared to die.