I just took another step in my plan. I don't know why. I don't want to die I don't think so why am I preparing to do so? Hmm. I'm crazy. Can't stop the thoughts.
My depression is winning, it is stronger than I am and right now, it wants me to hurt and to end everything and is continually showing me ways and means. I really do not see why I should fight it. I have already accepted that I am going to at some point, so why delay the inevitable?
Roiben
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
Roiben - Like Libz has said; nothing is inevitable until it's done - you can always change the path you're going down until it gets past the point of no return. I know the feelings are strong - and just how intrusive they are - but you're strong too. You can beat this. Can you talk to someone about how low you're feeling?
x Katie x
*hugs Roli tight*
I'm sorry you not safe - please try to make yourself as safe as possible? I can't lose you darling. None of us want to lose you <3 Always PM away yeah? Or text.
You is helping Roli - by being there for me. You has helped so much - probably more than you realise.
Oh Ok... Thats a nicer option. *Curls up and sits in corner*
(Hope no one minds me being little tonight... Can't face the big world)
Libz- Thank you honey. How are you doing? *Hugs*
Katie- Thats very nice of you to say honey, but I don't think I help at all. I dont think anyone as useless as me could help anyone.
I won't do anything tonight dont worry- My mums bday tomorrow... I'm not a complete monster. Just the plans and harming. They are my companions. That and the bugs. The fucking bugs. The will want me soon too.
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Being little is okay - sometimes need to be little when feeling bad.
You are not useless - you've made me keep fighting and you've kept me strong at a point when I couldn't see a way out of things. You might not feel it but you did. I'm glad you're not planning to do anything tonight - even if it is only something temporary stopping you. Find a reason for other people if you can't find a reason yourself, okay?
*hugs you tight*
x Katie x
you is welcome. i sick. and scared and stuff. is undercontrol right now though. katie knows bout it. when come home there bad parson but he left to go home cause my dad wasnt home. he just wanted talk hm
you can come safe room if wans be lil :) i been lil. hrd not to be right now.
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
