Just feeling low and overwhelmed at the moment. Cut for the first time in ages too today so feel guilty about that. A good thing is I have managed to start my assignment though.
How are you Mark?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Awww you live in Australia! You're so lucky. I'm doing animal care at college (I hate Humans, but feel ok with animals), and I want to move to Australia eventually. You have an amazing wildlife!
Omg this sounds so similer to me! Im doing an animal related degree and I want to use it to maybe go work at australia zoo!
I am holding on for the moment, I see the psych on tuesday its going to be hard but i think i can hold on till than, what im worried about is after the appointment, if he cant help me im going to have very few other options left!
This probally sounds so stupid bough i bought myself a make your own elephant today, you get all thease wooden pieces that you have to fit tohether to get aan elephant than you paint him. I intend to do it when im next feeling suicidal as a distraction.
Im sorry your feeling so bad Kat, welldone for starting your assignment though, its really hard to do work when your feeling so bad.
Sorry I'm not asking how anybody is, I can barely read because I'm crying so hard. I feel really, really bad right now. I can't take this constant anxiety any more.
I don't want to barge in or anything, I just wanted to say hi.
People sometimes call me Lucky(it's a nickname, Lucky Lucy) so you can call me that if it's not confusing?
I'm usually not shy, but I'm just not good at self-introductions.
I haven't been officially diagnosed with BPD because I'm not 18 yet. But I kind of have most the traits. I don't want to self-diagnose or anything but honestly I've always thought 'oh this is just my personality..I have trouble managing my anger and my emotions..I just can't keep a relationship..I guess I'm just..troubled'. But now that I think about it this really does make sense! I'll wait until I turn 18 so that I can get a proper diagnosis, but meanwhile I still have to deal with...myself I guess.
Hey lucky nice to meet you. Have you seen a professional about your problems? They might not be able to diagnose you as bpd but they can still give you help and support.
Hi Angel! Nice meeting you too.
I have seen this counselor at my school before. I talked to her about various problems in my life, but I don't feel that I can be totally open to her. For example I can't tell her about my SI..and I guess that's a bad thing.
And she also said that I should take a personality test of something? And that I should come to this other place she works at. But honestly I don't think I afford all that..So I have no idea what I'm going to do.
Unfortunately I don't live in the UK. I plan on moving there though, but I still have a long way to go.
I asked her and she said I'll have to pay. And there's absolutely no way my parents would be able to help me out..my parents are separated, my mom is kind of broke and my dad never even gave enough money for child support or whatever, so yeah it's not an option.
I live in Romania. And honestly I don't know if there's anything like that around here...but I guess not. As far as I know, nothing's free around here. That's one of the reasons I want to move away!
Do you think I'd be OK with just seeing that counselor at my school? At least that's free. And she's really nice. But if I can't tell her about everything that's bothering me, wouldn't it all be in vain?
Only really you and your counseller knows if she is giving you enough help. Can you ask her if she knows of anything thats free that could help you, even if its just a support group are something?
Umm I don't know, I guess I'l try to ask her. But I'm not at school right now, so I'll have to wait until school starts..in about three weeks.
But a support group for what? Like for SI? (Sorry I guess I'm a little confused, there are a lot of things on my mind right now..).
