Hope it goes ok for you and that you know whether your going IP or not as soon as to help ease the worry!
I'm going crazy about this BPD diagnosis, I feel like what's the point in talking to them ( the dr's ) if they're not going to take me seriously either way.
Have you spoken to them about how you feel? I hated the fact i got labelled with BPD for a long time. Sometimes I still do, but I try to see it as a way of getting therapy and some support until maybe I feel better, or, until i have enough therapy, and something comes to light that maybe makes them consider another diagnosis. BPD diagnosis' don't have to come with all the stigma attatched to them these days, if you can find the right person or you can explain to them that you're worried about it and work with your team to make sure they don't tar you with that brush.
I'm not sure that made sense, but I think what I was trying to say it you're not alone and don't give up hope.
They have just told me that my diagnosis isn't my concern as long as I get treatment, which I suppose is true. It's just been bothering me as of late.
I might raise my concerns when I see my psych next though: and just pipe up if I have the guts. I'm tempted to just sit there and not say anything because why would they believe me anyway? Theyve got it down that I'm doing really well, I might just keep them believing that because the truth is rubbish .
But the truth will lead you to getting the right treatment. I know how hard it is, and I'm being quite hypocritical here, but telling the truth is the best plan of action. *hugs* I understand your frustration, lovely.
Dolly; I was never told originally about what my dx was bpd for along time after when I finally received the letter in the post. However I feel I have got so much more support with this diagnosis than my previous dx of bipolar 2. I think colour is right though- it's about the treatment and how they can help reduce the symptoms and make it more easier to deal with on a daily basis. << that's what my CPN said to me when I was upset with the dx and the stigma and things surrounded by it. Hopefully you will have a supportive team behind you to help you through the rough patches.
LJ- hope they let you know soon. The waiting time is awful on the anxiety but I'm sure it will be fine. Keep us updated and your psych seems to have your best interest to make sure your more stable before you start college again.
Kat- how are you and that uni assignment?
Colour- how are you?
Hope everyone is okay x
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I'm stressed and feeling low. Haven't done anymore of uni assignment as had group today but will do some tomorrow after my psych appointment. How are you doing?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Kat - I think it was just money stress and general "i'll never amount to anything" negative thoughts. And tiredness. But I made it through (mainly because I literally passed out asleep really early last night) and today marks 4 weeks free. I hope your mood improves soon, how was group? Can you do anything to make yourself feel a bit better?
Is there someone that can help you out with money or even speaking to citizens advice would that help? It's hard when we get those thoughts but try and remind yourself of the things you have accomplished already. Hope you feel less tired soon.
Group was good, we did some mindfulness with a lindt ball (chocolate). That was yummy. Not really sure what I can do to make myself feel better.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Dolly - I hope you manage to talk about this to your psych. When I first found out I had BPD, I was told by a really horible doctor, who made it sound like my life was just going to get worse. Since then, everyone has been lovely to me about it. My diagnosis is rarely mentioned these day, everyone just focuses on the symptoms and how best to treat them.
Kat - Sorry you're feeling stressed :(
Colour - I'm really glad you got your deposit back!
Angel - Are you ok?
Doikers - I'm sorry you feel so low. I hope your mood improves a little.
As for me, I slept eventually, after more sleeping tablets than I'd usually need. Guess I was more stressed than I thought. Trying to convince myself to get out of bed and actually do something today.
My main psych said no. And now I'm angry. They force me into hospital against my will, and then when I really feel I need to be there, they say no. I mean, what the **** is with that? I'm seriously considering just driving of the Tay Bridge. Sure it'll be giving in and I'll die, but atleast they might then understand how I'm feeling!
To say I'm completely devoid of morals, would be harsh. Although I would have to admit I find it difficult to give a ****.
