Triggering (Abuse) - dissociative distress thread - Page 135

flying[star] · 20-06-2010, 09:00 PM

maybe... but lookin at your profie picture you dont look fat at all

hidingme · 20-06-2010, 09:03 PM

i glad this thread is here. i think i have disoociation of some kind too but not sure what. i havea little one..my little self. she is usually 6 years old and she has chosen a name for herself- sarah.

my abuse was emotional abuse but was not in childhood but it young adulthood ages 19-27 which is why i think sarah is here with me cause well little feels safe for me.

im so confused and lost and scared and i cant find anyone like me or any information that seems to fit what i am going through.

sarah likes to talk alot butshe is scared here. she is afraid she wont be accepted.. the couple times that she has gone into chat,, no one has really spoke to her much. which makes her sad and feel rejected and bad.

anyhow we are just hoping to find something or someone to help us understand what is wrong with me.

flying[star] · 20-06-2010, 09:05 PM

chats not the most friendly place if youre not in a good position, im not dissing chat but ive never realy liked it.

but sarahs welcome here

Kitkat :) · 20-06-2010, 09:07 PM

That's just a good profile picture... In person I look really different.

hidingme · 20-06-2010, 09:14 PM

ok i sori ten i not go chat anymor. i sori i bes bad. i jus wana talk. i liks to talk.and i bes bord lots cuz nobodi heer talk to cept for big me.

i has yaho if sombodi wana talk me ther.

ty for let me talk on bord tho.
Sarah

flying[star] · 20-06-2010, 09:15 PM

ayka don't try that one on me i know the tricks even tho im younger

sarah its not bad you didnt know and it sholdnt be like that in chat

Kitkat :) · 20-06-2010, 09:19 PM

I'm not trying anything, I do look different.

hidingme · 20-06-2010, 09:20 PM

one persin in chat las nite waz nic me ther name was hope. but toda tey not ther and othrs no undrstan me cuz i no type good.
oh.. bigme (Hiding) wan me ask if yall know anywher tat mayb can help us kno wat is going on in our hed and wy all tis bes hapinig.
we scard.
Sarah

l.e.g.o · 20-06-2010, 09:23 PM

sorry i was in chat i just not very talkative in there
sorry

Kitkat :) · 20-06-2010, 09:24 PM

Hi Sarah and Hiding, I'm Kathryn.
The red writing represents Ayka, she's not really that sociable.
I'd apologise for her but she just told me she doesn't want me apologising on her behalf.
Hope you find the help that you're looking for. It's hard for us to say what's going on in your head, or why it's happening to you...

flying[star] · 20-06-2010, 09:36 PM

Hm.
i think i figured out why were so cranky and switchy lately.
>.> body's about to go o;n the rag again.. no wonder kyle can't stay stable for more than a few hours

hidingme · 20-06-2010, 09:38 PM

tat is ok kathyrn.ty for tri
wejus confusd and scard i tink mayb we need tri tak nap cuz tird now cuz my papa make me cri..papa bes old and sik and medsin we tink maks him say meen stuf sometims.

sorry kathryn for sarah. we both are scared and confusd lately. tired right now too cause papa made sarah cry but she shouldnt have been out at my parents' anyhow..
no worries about ayka.. i understand.
Ihope she willfeel better soon as well.

Hiding &Sarah

hidingme · 20-06-2010, 09:39 PM

eww yeh we hat tat too .. we has it now too it bes soo yuki.
Sarah

hidingme · 20-06-2010, 09:41 PM

newlife~
sori i not tri nore your pos heer, its ok bout chat.. maybe i tri go bak nothr tim. i not sure.
Sarah

Kitkat :) · 20-06-2010, 09:49 PM

I'm sorry to hear that.
It's okay, most of my time I spend confused, so I know how you feel.
She'll learn when to come out, you just have to give her time.
Medication does make older men more cranky... My Grandad's is on about 10 different pills, and sometimes he can say mean stuff to us too

[Fog] · 20-06-2010, 09:51 PM

Hazel - Sorry to hear you felt so bad earlier *Hugs*. I'm glad that Jack was there with you to help you through it.

Kitkat - I feel paranoid all the time about people finding out my secrets, which I guess is partly due to having secrets and partly because I have OCD and do a lot of checks anyway. Is there an underlying issue that could be making you upset that you are trying not to acknowledge? I know this will sound really irritating, but it could be down to smoking weed. I used to get incredibly anxious and paranoid when I'd been smoking a lot and it made me extra-spacey too.

Emma - Sorry to hear that *Hugs*. I struggle with church services too and find it really frustrating. Maybe you could try going to evening services or a house group so that it's not too overwhelming?

Ayka - I'm glad that you couldn't purge, even though I know you must be feeling mixed up *Hugs*. Try to fight it hun. Please try not to worry about eating more. One binge will not affect your weight and any bloating you feel at the moment will settle down in a couple of hours. Remember that your emotions affect the way that you see yourself, so your perspective is distorted right now because you feel upset about it.

Newlife, FlyingStar - Hugs, hope you are doing ok tonight.

Plum - *Sends support and holds hand*. You are not a bad girl dear, the teacher was bad but you are good.

HidingMe - Welcome to the thread! I'm so sorry to hear what you have gone through. If you ever want to talk, just PM me, or let me know if you would like any information or anything. Of course Sarah is very welcome to post here too :-]. If Sarah would like to PM me to talk I'd be happy to hear from her too :-].

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I feel ok tonight, feel quite on edge and anxious but I'm not really sure why... I'm 21 in two hours...

Also I don't want to offend anyone... But I'm struggling with anorexia and I'm finding some of the eating and weight related posts on this thread very triggering... I know the rules on eating stuff aren't as strict in the Mental Health section aren't as strict as in Eating Disorders so I know this might be unreasonable of me... I just thought I'd mention that some of this is very triggering because I know I'm not the only one with eating issues here. I'm really sorry if this sounds harsh or anything, I don't mean it to at all and I don't want to offend anyone or make it like people can't post about what they are worried about... It just made me upset :-[ Sorry.

Kitkat :) · 20-06-2010, 10:04 PM

I have no idea, it's just the way things seem to be going :/ I do have obsessive-compulsive traits as well, and I am secretive too... I guess I could just be used to hiding things.
And I'll tell Ayka that as well, thanks (:

Kitkat :) · 20-06-2010, 10:06 PM

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with your anorexia Hannah ):

*lots of hugs* But no need to apologise sweetie.

flying[star] · 20-06-2010, 10:25 PM

plum she wont let you because thats not 'clean' like you think it's just gonna hurt your body more

flying[star] · 20-06-2010, 10:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by banana89

Also I don't want to offend anyone... But I'm struggling with anorexia and I'm finding some of the eating and weight related posts on this thread very triggering... I know the rules on eating stuff aren't as strict in the Mental Health section aren't as strict as in Eating Disorders so I know this might be unreasonable of me... I just thought I'd mention that some of this is very triggering because I know I'm not the only one with eating issues here. I'm really sorry if this sounds harsh or anything, I don't mean it to at all and I don't want to offend anyone or make it like people can't post about what they are worried about... It just made me upset :-[ Sorry.

its not unreasonable it triggers you and the ed stuuf isnt the 'intention' of the thread tho it's something allot of us deal with.

just a suggestion maybe we start putting that in hide-boxes?

-everyone