Been actually diagnosed with borderline personality traits. He said he'd diagnose me with a disorder but my life isn't unstable enough to warrant that, but said it didn't matter and I understand it. I thought a diagnosis would make me feel better, but I feel worse. I don't know how to describe it. The psychiatrist said no to meds because of my pregnancy and wanting to breastfeed, said that any therapy treatments would come after the pregnancy and I forgot to ask whether I was getting a CPN. I'm seeing him again on the 30th to see how things are going, though. I feel like this is going to be a long, arduous process of recovery and more than a little bit hopeless about how I'm going to handle that. If anyone identifies with this feeling, especially after they got diagnosed with BPD or the traits, it'd be nice to hear. I bought a lot of arts & crafts stuff today and spent the night doodling and painting for the first time in years, it helped to stave off my already low mood getting worse. I had the worst panic attack of my life yesterday and I still feel quite anxious.
Heaven - thats fab. it is a good feeling isnt it, to reach that point. i reached that point a couple months ago. was like the light came on. doesnt mean the issues go away, but gives you that little more fight to deal with them.
cracked - i resort to colouring when im anxious or stressed. love my colouring book and pens lol. the whole bpd, diagnosis and treatment thing is a frustrating minefield and does seem to vary alot around the country. my cpn said they dont like to work on a disgnosis anymore as so many mental health disordered overlap and interlink, they now just prefer to deal with symptoms rather than conditions.
morning to everyone else
Qualified Peer Support Worker (2017)
current mental health diagnoses: depression, PTSD, GAD, self harm, bpd
current meds (as at Feb 2017): , thyroxine, metformin, iron, b12, vit d, atenolol, Butec, Naproxen, Nefopam, Lanzoprazole, Bupropion, quetiapine (prn)
CrackedGirl...I find arts and crafts very therapeutic. Did you find it a helpful distraction from your thoughts?
Hi ya Wendy, how are you?
How is everyone this morning? Any plans for the day? I am OK. I don't really have any plans, might eBay some of my art materials and then make some cards.
When life gets you down do you know what you've gotta do?
