Are night staff ever available to talk? Perhaps there will be someone on you'll feel comfortable with. Anything it would help to talk about here? *hug*
“Our defeats are softened and our victories are sweetened because we did it together.” - Toby Ziegler.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Mine was also good. Also full but may find room for ice cream :P
Yay for warmth!
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Ducky, that actually sounds delightful. I wish I was snuggled up under blankets watching TV.
Thanks both. I don't know about talking to staff tbh. There's some stuff I can't really talk about to anyone for one reason or another, as much as I'd like to. As for the rest, again not staff worthy. Basically I have my tribunal next week which will determine if I have to stay for up to another 3 months or if I get to go home. Now. I have the option of becoming voluntary at any stage, just by agreeing to stay BUT I don't want to stay. I want to go home. BUT I might not get my way at the tribunal, which would mean staying. I want to go home to England for Christmas but I'm not 100% sure how that would work. I'm sure my psych would let me if I was still sectioned but my family might not be happy having me. Sorry. I think this is a bit jumbled. Basically I want to go home. I might not win my tribunal. I'd have more freedom if I was voluntary but I'd be agreeing to stay.
*cuddles Amy* It makes sense. I think all that is worth talking through with staff, definitely. I can understand that you don't feel able to stay, but if you can't leave anyway, then maybe trying the voluntary route would be a good thing. We all know voluntary doesn't really mean voluntary, but if it would give you a bit more freedom then that might be positive. I really think talking to the staff even if it's not about everything would be a good idea <3
I feel like hell but hey ho.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Yeah I get the logic BUT if I win the tribunal that's it, I get to leave no questions asked. Idk. I might see who's on tomorrow and maybe talk to them. I'm not sure.
You know when everything feels terrible for no reason and it hurts, like physically hurts just to keep breathing. I want to feel happy about all the things I have to be happy about but I feel so so so awful.
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
*Cuddles* I know that feeling very well these days. I'm sorry I have no useful advice other than to start the new AD as soon as you can and hope it kicks in and helps you cope a bit better with everything. You know where I am if you ever want a chat. <3
Yeah. I kinda hope someone is on tomorrow too. But I'm not sure what talking about it will achieve. It's still gunna be my decision at the end of the day.
Hi guys - have read everything and I love you all. Had a nice couple of days with my friend.
The agency lady ended up booking me in for tomorrow, but then a family friend (who is a clinical psychologist) told me not to go because I shouldn't have to pay for a DBS and he didn't trust it, plus they messed me about so much. However, I do have an interview with a shop in the local shopping centre on Friday. It's a part time role. If I get it, it will be good to have something to do and a bit of income, plus it won't be too mentally taxing so I can still keep applying for assistant posts. Fingers crossed something comes of it :)
I am too tired to reply to everything but did want to say to Hannah, yay for going to GP. I'm proud of you. Mirtazapine has been the most helpful of the medications I've tried (this is medication attempt 6 or 7 for me). I'm on the highest dose. I found it does really help with sleep and anxiety, I just take it at bed time and I sleep better than I've done in years. I don't find drowsiness carries over to the following day but that might just be because I'm used to it. If I'm being an idiot and I take a few too many I do feel very tired/sicky the next day but obviously take the recommended dose and you will be fine. Had vivid dreams the first few weeks but that happens with any new antidepressant for me. Also gave me the munchies for the first few weeks too :P
I am really tired so will leave it here, sorry for the essay x
Ali, what have you decided about tomorrow? I have to admit I've never heard of paying for a DBS either, very strange. Anyway, good luck with the interview on Friday. :)
I still don't know. They've messed me around so many times that I'm leaning towards not going, plus the DBS thing is weird. It's not even a definite job, it's just registration with this agency - what with not having my own car I'm unsure what they'll be able to offer me. If I do get this retail job it will be a bit easier and less stressful so I can still put all of my energy into job applications :)
Sounds like you'd be better off not doing it then. I really hope you get the job, it'd give you something to do and a bit of money, can't complain about that right?
Ali, good luck with the interview! I hope you get it :)
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Oh Amy :( *cuddles* Are you able to talk to any of the staff tonight?
Heyy Ducky. How are you doing?
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Do ignore me. I'm not worth listening to. I'm a whiner. A particularly fat whiner at the moment. Am I even allowed to say that any more? The rules are confusing.
