I know the feeling moke. That is one reason why I stopped my meds. I feel disgusting everyday. Right now i am extremely depressed and must go to work...I don't know if I can. Right now I wish I did feel ill and would just get sick so I could call in sick.
keep meaning to come back to this thread, but have been working the worst hours ever. so just coming home and eating and sleeping!
good luck with getting pregnant flutterby!
hello boobie! yeah long time no see! #
fingers crossed i'm moving house on friday, wich is great, and really excited but also stressful. and i can feel myself starting to wobble. real test of the meds now. stress is probably what sets me off the most in day to day life!
how you doing IandLove.You?
moke did you go to the docs? grrr the nhs councelling, i used up mine, the woman was ok to start with, then got a bit weird, but if your anything like me "getting you to talk is like getting blood out a stone" (she told me that!) then you need a bit longer then what they give you.
xxx
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Had a bit of a crash moodwise today, I've been alright recently but I was coming back from Thorpe Park and my mood just crashed... I wanted to cry, I didn't want to go home and I turned off my iPod, which is weird cos I always listen to music.
My mood hasn't really lifted... I'm still feeling kinda crap. Don't really know what to do either.
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Ahh same... I've had a few instantaneous and unexpected highs and lows, my mood is beginning to change really quickly from one extreme to another. Urghh... can't really be bothered with anything right now.
I stopped taking my meds and my doctor knows this...he told me we could see how I would do this month but I don't know if I can handle it...My mood is horrible! I want to do it so so bad without meds though and I don't want to get as bad as I have been in the past. When should I talk to my doctor or consider going back on meds?? I think I don't want to realize that I do need them because I want so bad to not have to be on them....
Crashed a bit this morning, I woke up feeling OK but then I couldn't find the shirt I wanted to wear and burst into tears :-/ Feeling exhausted and crappy, and just want to go to bed and have a blub, not sit here and pretend everything's OK at work...
Hey everyone... I don't believe I have posted in this thread before.
My name is Alix. I just turned 20, and I was diagnosed with clinical depression when I was 17-18. I suffered from it from the age of 14, though. I have also been diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder.
My depression varies... my senior year of high school, I had to leave school because I just couldn't get out of bed. I was pretty blank on the outside and it was so hard to function. I went into a treatment center, and things got back on track for a while. But now things are absolutely horrific again... It's cause me to lose relationships. I don't sleep properly (too much or too little) nor am I eating well. My minds in such a dark place... I can be very suicidal on some days (this day being one of them). All I am good for lately is crying and some SH.
I hate when it's so bad because I am just so.. useless. It's like I'd be better off not existing. I barely leave my bed or my bedroom. It's so hard.
I am glad RYL connects me with people who understand and are going through the same things.
I overdosed :( I read somewhere that overdosing on this particular drug increases the side effects, one of which is elation. But I didn't feel that elation at all, it just brought me further down. I'm so stupid.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
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My mood was really low recently, although it lifted because I got into a college, when I really though I didn't.
Not that anyone actually cares how I'm feeling, everyone just overlooks me and just focuses on themselves when all I do is listen to them.
Well, my friends really. People on here are really supprting.
