Is the fact you can't feel it and didn't have a mark evidence that you don't have implant for you to use with your CBT technique? Even with scar tissue I think you would either have felt it or found it.
Ah but because you can't feel it, then it can't be like the contraceptive implant. Reason there is no mark with contraceptive implant is it is so shallow it's just under the skin. Anything that you couldn't feel from the outside would surely have left a mark.
Do you feel unable to turn things around and try to focus on getting through your admission in a positive way? It feels like you had a bit of a positive breakthrough but weren't able to hold on to it. What needs to happen for hospital to be a supportive place and get you home in a better frame of mind? I hope your visit on Tuesday is helpful.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You're right, I had a short time when cutting my neck seemed dangerous. I don't know where that went. I wish I could lie to the psych and staff and say I've changed my mind so they let me go. But I hate lying.
Lying is never a good idea. People need to know the truth so they can find ways to help. Everyone is there to support you not catch you out even if it might feel like that sometimes.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
yea agree that lying is not a good idea, and it sounds like they might catch on. the things re the implant and other stuff seemed less intense for a bit, and have been less intense in the past. so it seems likely they will be less intense again. do you know what helped before? it's okay if not.
really hope you can hear about the exorcism soon. does seeing R help? hopefully that will be good to look forward to.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
My anxiety went up to a 3 (my highest level) and I've tried all my coping skills so I decided it was ok to ask for prn and the nurse was ok with it too.
I don't think they'll know when I'm seeing the psych until she tells them tomorrow!
I'm worried she thinks I'm doing this deliberately, in a twisted way?
How are you doing so far today? Have you heard anything about the psych? Is there something she has said or done that makes you worry she might think you're doing things deliberately? I'd hope she wouldn't be so judgemental.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I'm sorry you're feeling angry with yourself, it's not your fault. If you could find a way to show yourself some compassion and look positive goals for how you can be in a better place to get home maybe that would help. It's ok to ask to go to the toilet if you need to, I hope you feel better soon.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I'm feeling frustrated. I need a magic wand! I just saw R. We agreed I could contact the exorcist on his public contact details so I will do that this afternoon.
