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Hm. That felt... weird. I don't feel as hateful. Huh. Erm... thanks, I think.
I don't know why I don't know that... I just, I figured that no one really cared about me so I don't care about them... Two way thing really.
Mmm I suppose.
I meant I've been in her head for years, since the first time she went through a time of not eating properly when she was 13. Since then she's had a number of times when she hasn't eaten properly, and been sick after eating...
im sure ppl rly do care but it's really hard to show it when ur violent an doing mean things to everyone and shoutin and scaring everyone.
an i know how it is with tht... i hate eatin. thers only a few things i dont have a problem with and theyre all either binge foods or very very low calorie.
look im not even as old as you are (i think? im 13 idk u seem older) and im not afraid of u i think u just seem rly scared so u get angry.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Yeah I suppose.
Yeah I have that problem, I won't eat anything proper but I'll happily eat binge foods.
You're right, I'm 18, Kathryn's 16.
I'm surprised that you're not scared of me, quite a few people are... Well, the only people that know me, which isn't many.
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Yeah I should probably try to get on with people... It's just everything I remember, is people never bothering to try and get on with me and just taking the mick out of me and bullying me so I just harboured all my anger and have let it out too late and at the wrong people...
Kathryn doesn't know how to deal with anger and hate, so I take it all.
ya i know.
ppl hate us too - even our school hates kyle b/c everyone thinks were a lesbian when its not that at all. and we were bullied around a lot to back in elementary school b/c we were "smart"(ha. right) and tried so hard to be a good kid
allot of times he'll take his anger out with fists too.. on us and sometimes other ppl and on walls and trees and stuff.
try to let it out when you guys are alone more. on things that ARENT alive.
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Me and Blue are crying.
The pain has come back.
Kathryn's ex told her that he loved her, and its hurt us.
For me, because I'm 15 and that was when Kathryn's ex dumped her and broke her heart, so I took all the pain because she couldn't handle it cos her best friend dumped her at the same time.
Blue because she doesn't want anyone to get close to her.
It hurts ):
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We're okay now, though Blue's still shaking a bit.
I've calmed down and rationalised with myself, and I'm alright now. Just shock because we didn't expect him to say those things.
Thanks for asking though :)
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I'm the calm one, I normally sort things out... Which is strange, considering I'm only 15 but can calm down Ayka enough so she won't do anything and she's 18..
How come Morgan doesn't like your room?
I'm indifferent to Kathryn's room... It's hers really, she had it before we did so why should it bother me? I'm more focused internally than externally really.
Another alter. Why do they keep coming out so suddenly? This one only 8 years old. Speaks only in short sentences and pictures. Luke takes care of her.
It's just so hard now to keep everything together with five of us in here. Everyone's talking at once, it's exhausting me. Gave me a headache today at work.
White is trying her best to keep everyone calm, but it's wearing her out. Everyone is feeling cramped and anxious to get out. And we don't have therapy for another week.
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Palemoon - I know how you feel, I have 6 of them and it gets crowded in my head too, especially if you have someone like Ayka who's constantly trying to throw her weight around and Blue who gets intimidated by it and just can't stop crying.
I have a feeling there may be more... But as of yet, I am unsure.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Ayka, you say you have no way of communicating with Kathryn, but you write here all the time, and she obviously reads your posts..... so why not use this space?
Good to see you olive branch :)
We're tired and really foggy, we have art therapy tomorrow, but don't feel like we can be collected enough...
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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It's not that I have no way, it's just that... I don't know how to do it constructively.
That's a good idea really... I'm a bit thick when it comes to stuff like this.
we have to go for a bit to do some chores
