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[Em123]

Do i need to put it down im scared to

[Charmed]

Roli, Thanks honey, im here for you too <3 Maybe him not wanting you to leave can mean a little bit more now that he isnt here? Maybe you can stay for him? You can get through, it seems hard but you'll make it, remember "we're all in this together" :) *squishes*

Mum24, what Roli said really! I do feel that way sometimes too, you're not alone. Can you talk to someone about your meds not working? Maybe they can prescribe new ones? I can't really add much more to what Roli said but... *huge hugs*

Em, As Roli said, are you trying to distract yourself? Turn some music on, loud, put a hilarious film on, read a book, anything, you can stay strong honey <3

[Em123]

I cant put it down its so hard i need to cut idk im just hard to put down

[Mum24]

Roli squish. I'm sorry you're not fine. Pm me anytime you know that right?

I don't think I dissociate. Is anything making me obsessed? Yes it's always the same... How I'm feeling and I get attached to people I can't have. People who seem to care, but i dont think they really do. It's painful. And I can't stop thinking about those two things. I'm stuck. And this depression is just a loyal companion. I hate nighttime. I don't know how to keep getting through it. I need a MAJOR change in my life. But every time I make major changes it spells disaster. Still if I could think of a way out...

[getting_by]

Please honey. It will make you feel calmer. You don't have to even put it out of the room, just out of your hand. Its ok, your safe, no one is going to take it away from you. Promise. *Holds you close* Keep talking to us honey. Do you have some music on? Is anyone else in the house with you?
xx

[Em123]

I put it down *holds on to u tightly and cries* i have music on but i turned it off because im scared blade is on the ground . I dont feel safe

[getting_by]

Well done honey. Proud of you.
Why do you feel yu need to cut hun? What is it that makes you feel safer with the blade? What does it give you?... If you find what you crave, you could try to find something to replace it. Something non harmful. x

[Charmed]

Em, You can put it down hun, just put it in a cupboard, or under some cloth so you can't see it anymore. Please put it down, I know you can do it, i have faith in you. Just being on here shows how much restraint you have had so far, so you can have the willpower to put it down honey *hugs tightly*

Mum24, im sure they do care, they wouldn't be there if they didn't <3 You can get out of the depression honey, its hard but you can make it. You have made is so far during this time, you can make it farther. Can you talk to your husband? Or anyone around you? Maybe you can change but slowly? Rather than trying to change something in an instant, take it slow. *hugs*

[getting_by]

Mum24- Don't even think about it honey. I can see your planning brain getting into gear. The only way out is through. With us. In this together.
I hate night to. It sucks.
I know its hard honey, but there are plenty of people out there who care about you. Us- to name but a whole bunch.
Hugs tight xx

[Em123]

I feel like i need to hurt myself because i feel like ots my fault its just so hard i kinda wanna pick it up again but then u giys would get mad its really hard

[Charmed]

Oh honey, of course we wouldnt be mad, we just want you to be safe and are trying to get you to be safe <3 please dont think we will be mad. No one can make you not hurt yourself just try and help you. I can promise you its not your fault though <3 If you hurt yourself will it really make you feel better in the long run? We wouldnt get mad though hun, I promise *holds tightly*

[Mum24]

Roli and charmed... I know I am not thinking straight. Don't worry I don't want to die. But I am feeling like I could do a small od or hurt myself. I just don't want to sit through these feelings. I should tell my husband but I just can't.

[Mum24]

Em123. Hugs

[Em123]

I slipped up this is all my fault im sorry im sorry shaking

[getting_by]

Sorry for the slight delay... minor meltdown. I'm ok now. No one will notice.

Em- We won't be mad hun. Just trying to help you.
Whats your fault hun? I'm sure it isn't. HUgs xx


edit- Oh honey. Its ok. Shhh. We're here. Your safe here hun. U ok? You sorted it out? x

xx


Mum24- Please try not to hun. They are both dangerous and dont help in the long run. Hugs tight. Please try to talk to your husband. Is any of your 'support' helping atm hun xx

[Em123]

I i did more ill stop imsorry *hugs u tightly and cries* im shaking im sorry ill stop

[getting_by]

*Holds you tight*
Ok honey, please go and put the blade somewhere safe now. No more hurt. Your hurt enough. Please. *Cuddles* Shhh. Its ok. Don't apologise. Now- have you cleaned it up hun? You don't want it to get infected or anything. Do you think you need any help with it? xx

[Charmed]

Em, Its okay honey, try and calm down, breathe... is it bad hun? As Roli said have you sorted it out? Its not your fault, i promise *hugs*

Roli, *huge hugs* Are you okay? Of course we will notice honey, is it your doggy hun? *holds you so you are safe*

Mum, Im glad you don't want to die, thats a great start, please try not to anything, it won't help in the long run, we are here for you, you are safe <3




Edit: You don't need to hurt yourself anymore, please stop hun. As Roli said, have you cleaned it up? Please get help if needed. *hold you*

[Mum24]

I want to take some pills. Ive got them handy. Please tell me there's an alternative.

[Em123]

Holds on to u tightly* i put it down . Is that ok? :'( im cleaning them . I dont need any help shaking a bit scared . Im sorry it my fault