A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
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I know what you mean about the body parts aching, normally I get a headache, and I rarely get headaches so I know its one of my alters because I feel spacey at the same time.
Katie,
Yeah I actually get this a lot... Stomach aches, lots of tension in certain areas...
How are you? Hope you are ok...
We're a bit all over the shop, more lost time than usual, memory flashes - nothing tactile, no body memories, but lots of images and noises... also not sleeping well and feeling physically ill.
We did a head count inside yesterday, :O overwhelming
So are you implying that most people aren't quite so perfectly connected or...?
yeah confused, sorry.
underlined part. Dude, i can sympathize with that. Our body is female, despite me being male and her being somewhere in between.
That has to be VERY frustrating, paticurally with knowing that everyone else is a girl and the body being female is going to stay that way.
but he's still got to learn that being obnoxious and/or scaring any of you isn't going to work to get him anywhere.
you guys ok?
It's okay, maybe we weren't clear enough. We have a lot of "co-consciousness" in our system, in that everyone knows what everyone else knows and we don't lose time when one of us is out. But it's not the same for every system. Usually there's some in between--some are more connected than others. We're just at the extreme end of the spectrum.
Thanks for addressing Luke's concerns. He's feeling better now. He's glad that I (Jen) don't wear very feminine clothes, and refers to the rest of the system as a whole as "the girls."
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
Ayka - I can really understand the desire to self harm and to starve, but I don't think these are the best ways to express what you are feeling. Actually I find that they cut off what I am feeling and mean that I am unable to reach an understanding of what is going on. Could you find another way to express yourself?
Katie - I was diagnosed with conversion disorder - I have had an RSI-type injury for about five years that meant that I had to give up a music career. It developed around the same time as the break up with my ex. In general I get aches and pains corresponding to what I'm feeling. I think mental and physical pains are actually very connected but it does take some thought to link the two and understand it.
Lost Boys - Sorry to hear that things are a bit all over the place and overwhelming at the moment. Have you talked about these things with your therapist? Hang on in there *Hugs*
PaleMoon - I'm the same with the male alters, I'm not at all feminine and my body is basically pre-pubescent because of my ED so that kind of makes things easier in a way. How is it going with Luke?
PaleMoon - I'm the same with the male alters, I'm not at all feminine and my body is basically pre-pubescent because of my ED so that kind of makes things easier in a way. How is it going with Luke?
Fine, thanks. Nobody except White wants to go to work today--it's getting harder to focus on things outside when inside is so upset.
Also, Mom is mad because we sleep so much--sometimes more than 12 hours a night. Does anyone else sleep like this?
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
I don't know how comfotrable I feel posting in here anymore becausesome sigs have two names that I have in my system and I don't want people to feel like I'm copying, though the names have been there for years,since before I was diagnosed, I promise.Sorry it just makes me feel wary. But I want them to be able to post in here/for me to be able to post about them by name. :/This probably made no sense.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
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Because I can't talk to her, I'm not good with words, I talk using fists and actions.
Kathryn won't become annoyed at me, she's more likely to become scared of me, which works out just fine for me. I don't care what people think of me.
Unfortunately Kathryn doesn't have the same attitudes to eating as I do so she ate a proper dinner tonight...
its good your startin to talk a bit i dont think you're too bad with words
and scaring ppl isn't good its not gonna get u what you want.
not eating isnt good for u either... and im the one who does that a lot too but it doesn't work u get sick and when you *have* to eat again all the weight just goes back on anyway.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
I am currently:
I've never hugged someone... How does it work? What does it mean?
Urgh affection. I'll try though.
*holds out arms and shuts eyes tight*
Urgh I can't watch.
I just can't organise my speech, I think it may be more that.
I know it doesn't work, Kathryn never follows through, I've been in her head for year but it's only now that she's acknowledged me since about April or thereabouts. I've often told her she's too fat, which is why she's a borderline anorexic but she's never become all that ill.
*wraps arms around your back and squishes slightly*
*lets go and steps back to a safe distance*
it means ppl care about u an wanna help, silly how do you not know that? even my mom used to and she haaaaatees us (me+kyle)
and i think ur organizing pretty ok. Even if it's jumbled a little its still better to talk abut it and get out that way rather than hurting u.
i understand the thing about sayin shes fat
i do that to kyle >.> i kno its wrong tho an i'm trying to deal with it a little better.
kathryn hasnt gotten 'that ill' yet but shes probably weaker than she used to be and probably gets sick easier now tho.
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how do you not know that? even my mom used to and she haaaaatees us (me+kyle)