Em123- Hugs tightly. You can hun. You can do this. Please dont OD- It doesnt help, I promise you that.
Who can you hear honey? Who don't you want to leave you?
Were all here for you xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
I can hear my friend that died im shaking i dont want to do this i need to hurt myself or something.. I dont want u to leave me or anybody im scared im sorry
Roli, Are you sure hun? Im not convinced you're fine, but i hope you are *hugs back* how are you feeling from yesterday? <3
Em, What is she saying hun? Remember she would much rather you stay here than be with her, promise <3 We won't leave you sweetie, we are all here for you *hugs* As Roli says OD-ing doesn't help, please don't do it. Feel free to PM if needed. Please stay safe * hugs more*
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Em123- I can only reiterate what Charmed said. I know its tough hun, but you can get through this. What has happened is absolutely terrible, but your friend would not want you to suffer because of what has happened. *Hugs tightly* As for this motley crew and I- we're not going anywhere. Here with you all the way.
Charmed- You didn't answer how you were?!
Well I am still devastated. I hear him, scratching at the door. I keep having anxiety attacks when I remember he's in the garden, under the ground. Need to rescue him cause he's only sleeping. Its messing with my head. I keep thinking that I was dreaming (I had a nightmare the day before yday that he died but I woke up) then the same one, but I didn't wake up. I keep getting confused. (I dissociate sometimes- I get confused as to what happened when and things) I woke up so many times in tears last night. I'm pathetic. Truly pathetic.
Things we're bad before. The world was bleak. The thoughts strong. I was ready to go. Now this. I really am ready now.
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Em, I understand honey, really I do, will she listen to you if you ask her to leave? Could you tell her how she is making you feel? She wouldn't want you to feel this bad. Please don't, it won't help in the long run, honestly it won't. Can you ring anyone close? A family member? Friend? I know you won't call a helpline, but sometimes if you can't talk to someone close they really help. *hugs*
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Em123- Hugs tight. Please try to resist hun. I know its hard. But the voice isn't real honey. She is in your heart and your head because you cared about her so much, but its not real sweetie. I'm sorry. *Holds you close* Try to distract yourself as best you can honey bee. Please. You won't trigger anyone honey, don't worry, its a serious discussion thread for a reason.
HUgs tight xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
No hun, come on. Keep fighting. We have a saying in the thread "We're all in this together" please keep fighting. Get help. You dont have to go through this alone xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Its really her the voices i just now im hearing rher things ots so hard i want to hurt myself im a mess i cant call anybody i cant im reaally scared dont leave im sorry
Roli, sorry i replied before i saw your new post. Also sorry trying to avoid that question :P But i am fine thanks.
Im so sorry you are feeling like this :( I know how hard it is when you lose someone you love so much. Is there anyone around to support you at the moment? It will get better honey, i know its hard at the moment, but it will get better <3 try thinking of how happy he is now, to not be in pain anymore, and try celebrating his life and the time you had with him. You're not pathetic at all, please don't think that, you are just very upset which is understandable. Please don't go, he wouldnt want you to go, you can do it honey, we all believe in you <3 *huge hugs*
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Em, I know your scared honey, but we are all here for you, like Roli said, "we're all in this together". And i completely agree with all that Roli said! You can get through this, she would want you too <3 Are you scared of what you are going to do? Or scared of the voices? Or something else?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Roli and charmed.. How are you guys? I didn't have it in me to read past posts.
Guys, I think I'm losing my mind. I'm obsessed and can't control my thoughts. It's ruining my life. Does anyone else feel that way? Why can't I stop the thoughts? Meds aren't helping.
Em123- Its ok, we're here hun. So, what are you going to do to try to distract yourself honey? We need positive coping strategies. Do you like to draw or pain or listen to music (I find that can help with unwanted head noises) or a film or programme you can watch? I think it would be good to try to distract yourself hun.
Charmed- I'm really sorry your struggling. If you ever need to talk hun, I'm just here.
I know he wouldn't want me to leave, but he didn't last time either. I just don't know how I can face this next year.
x
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Charmed and I have agreed we are both 'Fine' in the previous posts.. But we are both lying.
I do feel the same way honey. Is there anything in particular that is making you feel like that hun?
My thoughts control me a lot. Thats why I end up doing stupid stuff.
Do you dissociate at all hun?
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
OK sweetie- Please go and put the blade in another room for me. Just out of your immediate reach. Talk to us for a little longer about how your feeling and why you want to harm. Try to control your actions, you don't have to feel helpless or scared. Your safe here. With us. Hugs xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
cant do this .. Want to od on pills im shaking i just this is to much plz dont leave im shaking 
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
