But Aimee, how could you possibly get any sexier? :O
Now that it's 7am and I haven't slept, I feel better. I've kept myself busy while he was asleep, just doing washing up and cleaning and tidying. He's going to miss the luxury of a house frau when I'm gone!
I'm not looking forward to all the travelling I have to do in the next 3 days. Errgh. Not fun.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
I won some new accurate glass bathroom scales on ebay the other day and they arrived this morning. They actually gave me a better reading than i feared so im pleased!
Off to my boyfriend's parents this weekend. The beach is at the top of their street so there will be plenty of oppertunities to take the dog on some nice long walks for exercise (me and the dog lol).
Rockaroni... i didnt really mean it as a cliche, i mean it from experience. I was in a long distance for three years and now we live together. I don't think we would be half as close as we are now if it wasn't for that time apart, because now we appreciate each other so much more. It WILL be worth it x
~*~ Proud Cat Owner ~*~
"The smallest feline is a masterpiece." - Leonardo Da Vinci
So is everybody else, Kez your weekend sounds ace and Rockaroni (Katie?) things will work out alright, you just have to stay strong.
I feel bleugh, it's my friends 21st tonight, and I'm going to be the fattest there and I just feel rubbish, and don't want to get plastered.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
^Hope tonight is better than you expected.
& Aimee, you are indeed awesome.
I have now packed for going back to uni. I have no idea how I'm going to manage all my stuff on the train. And I swear I'm only taking the essential stuff! Fail.
Hi all. I have never been here before.I was wondering if anyone has any advice ,Im a dit desperate.What do you do if youre craving bad foods .I cant say no at all and usually give in.Have you any tips ?? This is only lately though cos I feel low ..thanks.
Hey :)
Have you seen the thread on Compulsive Over Eating / Binge Eating that Aimee posted? There are some really good tips there about avoiding overeating, so I'd suggest working through those and seeing if it helps. I eat a lot of 'bad' stuff, especially when I'm feeling awful, and the things that I find help are sorting out a meal plan [but NOT one that I have to stick to rigidly] with healthy things that taste good, and not cutting out everything unhealthy. So I'm sort of learning to enjoy eating well. And finding something to do to distract myself, something that I enjoy and I can't do at the same time as binging - exercise, and I'm learning to make jewellery, which is rather fun. I also find that not keeping 'binge food' in the house helps. But that may just be because it's a long walk to the shop and I'm lazy =P
But most importantly. If you're eating because you're feeling low, then that's what you need to focus on. Why are you feeling so low lately, and what do you think would help? I also find that when I'm having a really horrible time, trying to beat anything, whether it be self-harm, overeating, whatever, is damn near pointless. I just won't have the motivation to do it. So working on your mood is the best start. Talk to someone? Do things that usually cheer you up? Eh, sorry for going on, but I hope you're doing okay. We're here for you; maybe posting in the ED board would help, and give you a wider range of replies (even if it's only lately, it's always good to catch it before it becomes too much of a problem). Take care of yourself, yeah? Oh, and keep posting in here if you want to, it's fun =] x
That's very good advice Hannah, and cheers for linking to that cause I was going to do that too (which is lazy given it's my own post haha). Hope it helps reallife.
Jeessss. Are you getting a dog?
Hi everyone.
Claire how was the 21st? I went to one last night too! God there's so much food, and I must have ate all of it haha, but I was drunk and I haven't been in a while and I remember saying:
"you know, thin doesn't equal beauty, i mean, i'm big and beautiful. i think the world will change and realise big people can be beautiful, and it will be me who started it, and i'll be awesome."
something like that, I don't recall it word for word. But it was a pretty big call on my behalf :P
Yes, we're getting a dog when we get our own place 'cause it's surrounded by bush and Anthony works nights and I refuse to be by myself in that situation. So we're going to get a dog and after i've had it for a few months, my sister is going to take it for a month and train it up for me!
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
It was nice, actually thanks Aimee, I got very very drunk, though. Ah well, I have another one tomorrow night, more civlised this time, though, it's a hectic time of year!
Like Jess, I love what you said, it's really cool, and I hope you had a fab time and aren't suffering too much anymore!
Hope everyone is good xx
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Aimee, that's awesome :D I can't wait for the day when the perception of what's beautiful changes.
Having said that, I certainly don't feel beautiful. I've gone up 4 dress sizes in about 6 months :/ Feeling crap about myself, and I'm going on holiday tomorrow. I left it too late to get some decent swimmies so I'm having to wear the bikini I had last summer. I'll probably swim in a dress over the top because no one wants to see my belleh. There's 8 of us going: 4 boys and 4 girls. All the other girls are gorgeous and size 10s or under. The boys (including the boyfriend) are all into exercise and stuff, so are built and toned. The shorts I bought at the beginning of the summer no longer fit me. Most of my clothes no longer fit me. I'm covered in scars that I've managed to keep from everyone (including my boyfriend, who gets freaked out by it, and I've managed to hide from him by keeping the lights off ) This is going to be fun...
AMY.
You're not as messed up as you think you are,
Your self-absorption makes you messier.
Just settle down and you could feel a whole lot better,
Deep down, you're just like everybody else.
Just got back from my weekend away. Had a couple of treats but it's ok cause i did loads of walking along the beach while i was there, and i am straight back into healthy eating tomorrow.
Doctors tomorrow. I intend to ask him to try and come off anti depressants cause i fully believe they are interferring with my weight. Plus i have been on them for over a year, and i don't think i have ever been properly assessed, just given a prescription each month. I am planning on showing willing for some more talking therapies so they might help me. Here's hoping anyway.
~*~ Proud Cat Owner ~*~
"The smallest feline is a masterpiece." - Leonardo Da Vinci
I have a cold. My ears are ringing. I have my period. I feel utterly awful and tomorrow I somehow have to take all my stuff up to Scotland with 2 changes on the train.
& yes, I like to moan =P
I don't know what it is (perhaps kick ass therapy) but lately, my view has just shifted so much. That big can be beautiful, too. And often is! I dunno, maybe if I sprout it enough, the whole entire world will catch on. But at the very least, it's helped me feel good about myself.
Hannah, I'd sure as hell moan too! Hope it goes alright though :)
Kez; I'm in the same situation re: meds! I've never been assessed and it's been over a year, I don't even think they're effective any more. But they've decided to "keep me on them" even though I recently went dropping back down, then started therapy, and got better again. Crazy, huh? I like to think they help my concentration though. Good luck - hope they're repsonsive to you.
Amy - forget the size of yourself and others, and focus on different things like SWIMMING. How cool is that. And HOLIDAY. *drools* Holiday & swimming mmmmmmm. Kick it up babe, you enjoy some time off from your head telling you bad things anyway. Just smile, even if you don't feel it, and live it up xxx
) This is going to be fun...