*stumbles in to the ward* is every one okay i just somewhere safe to lay my head
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
*wobbles in quite drunk* anyone want anything sorry i cant take this
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
erm can i come in could do with just curling up and just dissapearing right now, dont want to do this anymore just want to curl up in a ball and die sorry guys
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i just realised something-it was bad-i always knew it was wrong what happened but now it seems more real-hurts so much i'm so dirty it was all my fault-it probably wasnt that at all it was probably me as i thought before im such a dirty whore-i want to die
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
eek.....can I visit the virtual psych ward?.....If you can promise you'll pause the rest of the world so they wouldn't ever know, I'll even check MYSELF in.....*refers to first page* I'm sure the ward is just as magical as the castle with the princesses, so I expect to find some huge boxes of zero calorie chocolates when I arrive.....along with the magic happy pill that I will get before I leave, that will keep me from ever being depressed again and will make it like I'd never SI'd and take away every last bit of my ED..... Got a spare room anyone?.....*starts playing 'Downtown'*....." When you're alone and life is getting you lonely, you can always go DOWNTOWWWWWWWWNNNNNNN!!!!!....."
I am not afraid to keep on living-I am not afraid to walk this world alone..Biting keeps your words at bay,tending to the sores that stay-happiness is just a gash away.When i open a familiar scar,pain goes shooting like a star-comfort hasn't failed to follow so far.And pens and penknives take the blame,crane my neck and scratch my name.-but the ugly marks are worth the momentary gain.When i drive a sharpened object in,choirs of angels seem to sing hymns of hate in memorandum
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
woo hoo *hugs thread* i will never lose it again and hey everyone just feeling top of the world but i konw i am going to crash very soon
I GeT Lei'd In Vets
~An Angel Or A Charlatan?~
"i'd rather hate you for everything you are, than ever love you for something you are not, i'd rather you hate me for everything i am than have you love me love me for something i can't BE!"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
back again guys, just want to curl up in a ball and put some bed covers over me and shut the world out so mabye they will forget i was even born in the first place argh!!!!!! can do this anymore *starts to cry* so need a hug right now sorry
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
I don't even know if i can cope with a virtual psych ward now. Im so scared. Stopped meds saturday.
Psych says if i dont start retaking them he will have no choice but to section me and heve the meds injected into me. I havent even told him about seein things and hearing things again tho. Is he reading my brain? No hospital. No meds. I WILL NOT LET THEM DO IT
I cant stand it. The meds make u so fat. I hate every part of me. ugly in and out. I cannot take meds i have to get skinny. I want to be vanished.