The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread - Page 123

zowie · 02-07-2009, 01:30 PM

Yep, that's how long I usually sleep. Followed by a couple of hours of napping during the day.

Bleeding Angel · 02-07-2009, 03:24 PM

i try not to nap because i feel so much worser when i do, then i dont sleep at night.

ahh im starting to get annoyed doing my room, i have way too much stuff to take home so its going to take me a few trips.

ThinkingofRecovery · 02-07-2009, 06:24 PM

I'm glad that I didn't give in to the urges. I cut, but only a little. I didn't od. So, instead of being disappointed in myself today and ending up in hospital, I went into work in the afternoon and am still on track for my phased return as planned :)

Bleeding Angel · 02-07-2009, 07:22 PM

thats great to hear :)

whirlpools · 02-07-2009, 09:04 PM

how do you bear having to sleep so much? sedation is one of my most hated side effects of meds and i just can't deal with it at all, which usually ends up in noncompliancy over and over again and relapse.

seriously, you folks are so much braver than me.

Bleeding Angel · 02-07-2009, 10:09 PM

I think because at the moment i dont have alot to do, but it used to be a pain for going into uni, if i had a class at 9am or 10am its would be such a struggle to go in because i was so sedated.

I hate it really, but i really want to come off the meds soon, but i wouldnt know how to sleep naturaly because ive been on sedatives for 2/3 years now.

Hollz · 03-07-2009, 12:09 AM

I feel so bloody useless. I went to give blood today and was told I can't whilst I'm on this medication.

I'm so triggered tonight, sorry - hope everyone is alright.

Left in the centre · 03-07-2009, 12:53 AM

the meds - i used to struggle on my old meds. if you find you are and fele comfortable enough to adapt them suggest it to the psychs

hollz - i cant give it either. your not useless, lots of people cant give blood for different reasons.

whats triggered you

Hollz · 03-07-2009, 01:16 AM

Was just feeling really pathetic, on my own, hopeless, and lonely.

I'm drinking wine and mulling things over.

Kiwi · 03-07-2009, 05:27 AM

I'm with you, Whirls. I hate the sedatation and am usually off meds more than I am on them. Haven't found a happy balance yet. I've been trying to take them the way I should this summer, since I don't have to work until August, so I can maybe get used to the side effects. It would help so much. Does one ever get used to them? Is it worth it? Every dr. appt feels like a meeting with a parole officer. And there's always a reason for "not today, maybe tomorrow". But I know that's not helpful in the long run, either.

Left in the centre · 03-07-2009, 10:34 AM

hollz - how are you this morning. please be careful with your drinking. im sure you already know the affect of alcohol on mood - as in its a depressant -

hope your all ok today

ThinkingofRecovery · 03-07-2009, 02:30 PM

I love the sedation of my meds. Prior to being put on my ap in Oct last year I had chronic sleep problems - only able to get a 3/4 hours tops - and now I sleep through. Also if my prn makes me sleepy (which seems to be hit and miss and isn't supposed to as it is lower doses of my ap) and I manage a short 20 mins nap or whatever, I tend to feel less agitated.

Sorry to be the odd one here!

Hollz, hope you are ok hun. I won't say anything re the drinking as it would make me a complete hypocrite but we both know it isn't a good idea.

Hugs to all who need them.

Hollz · 03-07-2009, 02:38 PM

I love the fact my quetiapine sends me to sleep too, but I am concerned on how reliant I am on it for sleeping, it was prescriped to calm me down I think I dunno, bt if I dont take it then I cant sleep.

Im okay today atm, just watching tennis at the moment.

I have completely abandoned my open uni work, got 2 essays to do by tuesday. Not done much reading, not started and I am working 3 12 hours shifts in a row the next couple of days, I just cant get motivated

dink · 03-07-2009, 03:11 PM

hugs everyone

i just feel totally out of it at the mo and am struggling so much, i dont know what to do xxx

Left in the centre · 03-07-2009, 06:14 PM

hollz whilst uni work is easy to push aside its important to try and keep on top of thinks keep your sens of achievement. i know its bloody difficult and can seem impossible. but what about aiming to start one essay. just the introduction and an outline or something.

dink - wann talk it through ? what thoughts are you having ? can you pinpoint any feelings ?

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I'm doing the hysterical crying and irrational anger with a dash of low mood today.

Hollz · 03-07-2009, 07:17 PM

Plan is a few hours tonight, try and catch up on the reading and formulate essay plans. I fin work tomoz at 7, so will work between 8-11 and the same on sunday, if I get a chance to do anything a work, maybe some reading or that. Monday night a good 5 hour session I think, and as I'm off on Tuesday, will have all day to finish it off, with open uni the good thing is my deadline will be midnight.

Important thing is I actually make a start tonight. I feel so flat after the tennis, and I know Im going to watch soaps, so between 9 and 11, bed for 11.30 and up at 6...

Och the fun eh x

Left in the centre · 03-07-2009, 07:48 PM

if you know your patteren of behaviour will stop u working change it,
its hard once you stop and start relaxing but its about balance and im sure its totally something you already know about.
just concentrate on getting through what you need to
x

dink · 03-07-2009, 09:07 PM

good luck with your work hollz, hope you manage to get some done

i just feel really detached rite now - my mood is at its lowest and things seem really surreal, its strange and quite hard to explain. to be honest, it feels like im in some kind of limbo xxx

zowie · 03-07-2009, 09:23 PM

I'm feeling pretty positive at the moment. But it never lasts.

whirlpools · 03-07-2009, 09:35 PM

there's this saying "and this, too, shall pass". you're feeling positive, and yes, it will go away again. but it will come back! the negative times don't stay forever either.