she wont tell you my name shes too scared of shadow they all are i like being out i like having hands i dont talk but i can type i like typing for myself i could get used to this
You are talking to: Kat The Others are: Annabell (Belle), Rosie, Lotty, Kate, Amy, Jessica (Jess), Sarah, Ramiel(Miel), Elizabeth (Liz), Shadow
*waves shyly at everyone* sorry I've been off the ward a bit, just struggling atm. I have no hope of replying to you all, but I still care as much as I do when I'm up to individual replies.
One post stood out to me, a few days ago now, sorry again.....
Quote:
Originally Posted by Fallinstar0317
.. most of the time in real life i try so hard to be the person that people want/need me to be... but it gets hard. And I dont want to sound stupid but i just want someone to care about me for once. Everything always has to be about other people...
My friend told me today that people take advantage of me and that i let them, even encourage them. But idk how to be any different. None of my life has ever been about me, and normally that is fine... but tonight i wish i had someone to help. But who the hell would want to help me, nobody even knows me... i dont know if i know me. My friend then said that i actually have a lot going for me b/c im smart. But im not sure that being good in school is enough. I dont want school to be all that i have. And a few weeks ago My ex said that i have friends especially because of the whole situation with him... but i dont think i really do... i have sympathizers maybe or maybe friends by default, which isn't what i want either.
Laura, hun, I can so relate to this its scary, almost like I wrote it. So I understand, and seeing you write it and wanting to tell you its not right makes me think maybe its not my truth either.
Anyway, will try and keep track of everyone the next few days or so.
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
I'm sorry , there have been 5 or 6 pages since I went to bed last night , I've read some but I can't keep up with it all . SO Sorry
The stress of everything caused me to cut yesterday afternoon , I just have had enough.
Energy company bills,
E-mail breaking,
Benefits medical,
Phone bill weirdness,
Dr refusing to prescribe me my meds,
and on top of all that I feel down and have no energy.
Sorry to moan , I could cut again so easily now . I don't feel I deserve your support here .
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Of course you deserve our support Mark. It sounds like there is a lot going on for you right now, you must be feeling so overwhelmed by it all. You don't have to use self harm to cope though, we are all here for you. Please keep talking to us.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
Lindsay is right Mark. You do deserve our support. We'll always be here for you if and when you need us. There is a lot going on in your life right now, but self harm doesn't have to be the coping mechanism you choose.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Yes I do feel overwhelmed by it all , My SW has gone and set up an appointment with the volunteer bureau without my prior knowledge or consent so am not happy about that , I went to try and find the place today but coulden't .:(
All this stuff thats happening is freaking me out but I also am feeling Low apart from it all , I struggle to get out of bed , I'm just ........depressed right now , I have depression and know when I'm in a depressive slump and I'm heading into one now . I'm also getting Suicidal urges along with the S.I. urges :( They come and go, I don't see the point in life right now
*Hugs Kahlia,Lindsay,JK,Amy*
*Extra Hugs for Lindsay* I'm sorry to hear you took an OD , please be very careful , perhaps it's a good thing you don't have enough meds, but I understand you being frustrated at not having them , please take good care ok?
Last edited by Doikers : 09-05-2010 at 12:27 PM.
Reason: typo/to add a bit
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í 
