woah, that was a harsh comment. I have never blamed anything on my BPD, and have only had a diagnosis a short time, so I never had any īmedicalīreason before then.
I thnk hardly anyone blames things on their BPD, rather they acknowledge that BPD can make things harder to deal with, without using it as a way out of negative situations.
Anyways I hope everyone is good.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Hi lovelies,
I'd just like to remind you that I will go inpatient tomorrow. It is planned that I'll stay two or three weeks but we'll see.
Because I will be in an open psych ward and the hospital is only a few minutes walk away from my flat, I will be able to go to my flat quite often...and then, I will write here sometimes.
By the way, the last two days I've been being sooo nervous and my mood swings have been being even more severe than usual- from hope one second to fear the next one.
I am sooo afraid that I will have big problems with the rules there .
I hope that you will go on fighting and please, seek for help if you need it...either here or in RL or even in a psychiatry, too.
Big hugs,
Judith
PS: Please don't let you provoke by something like which has been written here in this thread! It would be sad to risk to be banned on RYL just because someone comes along and writes some
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I can't control my destiny.
I trust my soul. My only goal is just to be. (Rent)
I'm selfish, inpatient and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. (Marilyn Monroe)
Im feeling slighty happier today. I went and got my hair done (more for graduation because i dont like to look amess in the photos) and well im slightly impateint so i got it done today, give me a bit of time to get used to it and the best way to style it. Besides i love that nice feeling your hair gets after you go :)
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
Question: Has anyone with BPD been told they also have PTSD? I've been told the last many years that I am bipolar and BPD but yesterday my therapist says she feels I'm not bipolar but that PTSD would be more accurate. BPD stays the same. It kind of pisses me off b/c I just barely got the courage up to tell my family a year ago and they are not very nice about it. I can't tell them it's not bipolar! And a good portion of the PTSD is because of them! AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!! Ya bop shey hochoo ybeet fsex! (and am sitting here hoping none of you speak russian)
I was merely a prune In a box of raisins Dried and shriveled Like all the rest. . . . .
hey. the thing is with diagnosis's is that different people can view them differently
eg my psych says i have bpd my therapist insists i dont but i display traints.
its all a tightrope game.
if you feel its important to tell your family the correct diagnosis then do. but a diagnosis serves no other purpose than to help professionals figure out how to help us
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
Im really begging to hate the oh your rich thing. My best friend went away for a month and ive been getting more benifits since she left, so i told her how much i got a month and the reaction was "oh my god thats so unfair, i get x amount for a full time job and you get more than me for doing nothing" Nice.
Im actuly really bad with money, i seem to spend it on god knows what. I had this plan at new year to stop spening so much and clear my overdoraft by june, cept that never happend, and i find it so hard not to spend money. But i do really need to get out of my overdraft.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
im in a really bad place at the mo - i ended up od'ing on monday and stayed in hospital over night, but im back at home now because there were no beds on the crisis unit so its all crap - sorry for the selfish post, hope everyone's doing better than i am xxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
im really sorry to say no one can fix you,and searching for the one who can will just course you more pain.
you need to find the strength to help ureself.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
my idiot of a mother has once again thrown her "generosity" in my face. ive doen a week without cutting and im so angry. im in fecking tears i just dont have any other release.
my friends are all away and im on my own. help
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
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