I did go to the pharmacy and they didn’t have any *rolls eyes*. I’m on slow release venlafaxine at 225 mg but they saod they would have some tomorrow and they’d put them in the machine (my pharmacy has a machine that means you can pick up pills even when they’re shut with a code they text you).
This week has just been a bad week. I cancelled seeing V and our cats today because I don’t feel up to company, I’m really grumpy and just meh. Have to organise travel to London for sisters wedding soon, then to Ayr (which is at least still in Scotland) for brothers wedding 6 weeks later.
Sometimes I wish I was still a kid where your only responsibility was school, homework and keeping ones bedroom tidy.
that is super frustrating! the code thing sounds nice though
hopefully its just first week at new job overwhelmed? and gets easier soon? is support human still coming at all? can you cut back hours if you need to?
thinking of you
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
Camden, she was supposed to come yesterday but she texted me to say she couldn’t make it. I managed to clean the flat without her help (wasn’t terribly bad in the first place since I’ve been using the tracker she gave me).
V asked what was weong, and I couldn’t really put my finger on it. She thought it was new job stuff, and that makes sense so I guess it is. I can reduce how many hours I do if I need to, but gonna see whether or not it settles in a couple of weeks before making any major decisions.
That pharmacy code thing sounds genius! I'm glad you'll be able to get them tomorrow. That's a lot of travelling around to do though, best of luck with it all. Sorry you've not been feeling great though.
well done on cleaning! giving it a couple of weeks makes sense. :)
also with the wedding stuff it seems like a whole lot. maybe if needed you could cut back on hours until they are over and then do more once that stress is gone?
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
I'm struggling with emotions and outbursts of anger (projection) I'm worried I have EUPD or something.
not trying to be intentionally rude and not respond, just legit unsure what you are asking/looking for so unsure what to respond. hope you are as okay as possible.
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
Super delayed response, but emotion regulation can be a pretty common autism thing. EUPD/BPD is a common misdiagnosis for autism, although you can have both. How are things now?
pretty sure do not want to be autistic anymore. know it is inherently not bad or wrong. but it makes everything ****ing hard and so tired of it. so tired of autism is great and autism is a superpower and good thing because it makes you special. no. it just makes everything hard. are we being horrible?
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You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
I don’t think so, can certainly relate. I get frustrated at the whole ‘autism is a superpower’ thing too because Elon Musk has it and if the richest man in the world can overcome it so can I
Hi, sorry for intruding. Jenna suggested this so I will blame her! I don't have a diagnosis of autism, my GP referred me for an assessment a while ago but my then CPN found out and said everything was due to my MH problems and I was upset with myself and felt like I was trying to put myself in a box for no reason so I cancelled the assessment.
Anyway. I'm looking for some advice on sensory stuff. I'm so sensitive to noises outside and inside and inside my head sometimes. I try to go somewhere and every little noise makes me distressed and anxious and maybe in a bit of pain and I just want to get away. I also find it really hard to look at my surroundings when I'm walking because there's too much in the environment. I feel better if I stare at the ground, even the feeling in my eyes in that position makes me feel better. I've tried noise cancelling headphones but I don't like the feeling of the noise cancelling aspect. I sometimes wear normal headphones which help a little but I often don't want to even hear music. My hat can also help a little as probably an imaginary barrier. I have a football pitch right behind my house and usually it doesn't bother me but sometimes I can't deal with the thudding of balls and the shouting. My cat's noises are also getting to me and that's not fair on him. I feel overwhelmed. Any advice appreciated. Thanks in advance.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
First of all, I've discovered that many mental health professionals aren't trained to recognise autism/developmental conditions, so I'm really sorry your CPN made you feel like you couldn't continue with the assessment - there's nothing wrong with looking into these things, and I wonder if maybe you could bring the possibility up again? If only to get some answers/explanations?
I'm afraid I don't have much advice beyond what you've already described except have you heard of/tried Loop or Flare earplugs? I struggle with the feeling of things in my ears but I find I can tolerate my Loops if I need to when things get really loud or overwhelming. I can still hear what I need to but it kind of 'smooths out' the noise a little. Also fidget toys can really help, I have one of those tangle toys which is my favourite (when I remember it exists ). If taking some time to properly calm your senses is possible, I find that square breathing or body scans can help a lot.
I hope you can find some strategies that help you, sensory overwhelm can be really difficult.
'It's an impossible choice ... I'll just have to hope that when I flip the coin it somehow explodes and kills me.'
"You're not scared of climbing mountains. You're scared that you can't make them move."
I don't know if I'd bring up the possibility of an assessment again. I no longer have a CPN but my psychiatrist would find out and I just think people would judge me. I have done that official autism test thingy you can get online a few times and it usually scores me informally of course on the spectrum but maybe it is just my MH.
I have Loops but didn't really like them when I tried them but I might try again. I have a fidget cube which I always use when I'm out. I sometimes close my eyes for a second and take a deep breath and make stupid noises to try and calm me down a bit.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
). If taking some time to properly calm your senses is possible, I find that square breathing or body scans can help a lot.
