If you really knew me then you would know that after I got screwed over sticken with pain and having my life jepordized It would be hard for me to trust anyone again.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
You'd know I love pineapple lumps!!
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
If you really knew me,
you'd know I love deeply.
You'd know I hit bottom hard
when I'm treated cheaply.
You'd know I believe in angels,
and think demons are only in hearts.
You'd know that I live for music.
My pulse races when a melody starts.
If you really knew me,
you'd know just why I always care
about the broken down people
who think no one's there.
You'd know why I can act
and have passion for plays.
You'd know that I've been "fine"
behind my pretend face.
If you really knew me,
you'd know I hate being loud.
You'd know I still hear my parents
say I'm selfish and proud.
You'd know I'm scared of the dark,
'cause I fear what I can't see,
and maybe it's from the belt marks
that my father put on me.
If you really knew me,
you'd know I'm always engrossed
by a trembling fear.
I'm afraid of me most.
You'd know I avoid things.
I'm ever looking for escape.
You'd know when I feel darkness
I close up the drapes.
If you really knew me,
you'd know that I pray I'm more.
I don't win every battle,
but I hope that I win the war.
You'd know I fight with all I have,
just to feel sane some days.
You'd know I see a world forlorn
that's been torn so many ways.
If you really knew me,
you'd know more than I do.
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
if you really knew me you'd know that
- most of the times i tell you i'm ok, i'm not.
- no matter how much i'm struggling i will always be therefore you.
- i never meant to hurt you and i'm not the bitch you think i am, i was trying to look out for you because i care and hate seeing you being hurt
~ Being Happy Doesn't Mean Being Perfect,
It Means Deciding To Look Beyond The Imperfections ~
~ The Courageous May Not Live Forever But The Cautious Do Not Live At All ~
~ Whatever Happens Today - The Stars Will Still Shine Tomorrow ~
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm wearing a LGBT awarness bracelette and I'm bisexual but that I go to church twice a week and I'm a true believer.
If you really knew me, you'd know I'm really struggling over a break up at the moment, and trying to stay distracted is extremely hard. You'd know that the guy is still messing me about. You'd know how much I hurt. You'd know about how he keeps telling me he misses me and loves me. and that he's scared that he's got something wrong with him but refuses to get doctors help, and you'd know how badly this affects and triggers me because he makes it all seem like a joke when I've been through the same things as him and can help him. You'd know I'm giving up. You'd know I'll take him back if he asks even though I KNOW hes bad for me and doesn't understand, or Want to understand whats going on with me. You'd know that I just want to keep going on forever and ever...
