Heaven, Im okay thanks, still here, kinda drained. Thankyou for asking :) How are you doing? <3
Little paws, its great you have found someone you trust and are sending him a letter. Hopefully he will be in contact. Or you could always contact him :) Im also glad the meds help :)
How is everyone today? x
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
back here again. i dont really care if my life ends or it keeps going.
mind is tempting me to find somewhere to take a chance see what happens, let fate decide.
out of ashes - the festive season can be a very difficult time. Do you have some support around you if you find this period particularly hard? As little paws said; it's almost over now. little paws - I know it can be scary but I think you need to be honest about how much you're struggling with little or no contact from them at the moment. Jen - You might not be able to bring yourself to care, but I certainly do and so do a lot of others here. I think you need to tell someone about this impulsiveness.
*hugs for all*
x Katie x
my work place is shut atm (only open like 7:45am-5pm) so can't really ring, and I'm there tomorrow anyway so can get my hours to move the appointment if i need to.
I may have done something slightly silly tonight, but only to stop myself doing something completly ridiculous.
Katy - I hope you can rearrange the appointment, or are able to get the time off to go to it. It sounds like you could use this support. Sometimes it is about doing the lesser of two evils I think. I often find myself doing something to stop myself doing something irreversible. Take care of yourself honey.
x Katie x
Heaven, can you try and sleep so you don't feel so manic? Is there anyone around to help you feel less OCD-ish? (sorry i realise that isn't pc :S) *hugs*
Ashes, you can do this. Stay strong. Only a few days to go :) <3
Long Road, Please don't do anything, there are people who care about you and want you to be safe. Can you reach out to anyone to help you through? Keep fighting <3
Doctor, Do you need any treatment for what you have done? Please get help if it is bad. Its not silly at all, can you ring a helpline just to talk to someone? People do care for you IRL, you may not see or believe it but there are <3 Keep holding on, we are here for you *hugs*
Sorry im not particularly helpful at the moment x
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Jen - I'm glad something is stopping you darling, but I'm sorry you feel it's a guilt trip. Katy - I understand about work not knowing; mine didn't until a few months ago and it becomes very difficult to be the two people we're trying to be. Does your employer not make any special arrangements for appointments? With mine if they were doctors we could always have the time off but didn't get paid - but if it was hospital we were paid for it. I can understand - pretending is something that wears you out more than anything else I find. Charmed - My boyfriend is but he's up in bed because he has work tomorrow. My brain is slowing; I can feel it but I won't sleep until I've cleaned it all. It's just anxiety about tomorrow I think.
x Katie x
I will tell them at some point, but I can't yet, My manager is going through a period of being a complete b**** at the moment and I just can't speak to her.
I don't need to talk to anyone, I'm fine, I'll be fine, I'm always fine.
Heaven, sometimes you need to listen to your body, you can clean it all in the morning. Can you get up earlier to clean tomorrow? Maybe then you will feel less anxious. I hope tomorrow goes well for you <3
Doctor, your manager will understand your situation and that you are struggling at the moment. You may be surprised how she reacts. Sometimes you need to accept your not fine and need to reach out for help, its okay to admit you are not fine. Stay strong <3
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Charmed - I'm trying to do things that'll quieten the thoughts, but it's not really working right now. I'm already planning on being up by six am. I just...I feel like it needs to be done now. I feel like it's all going to go wrong tomorrow if everything's not cleaned now ^.^
I have never in my life cried as much as I have these last 2 days. I feel like I'm numb. Like there's nothing left. and every now and then I get a tiny little glimmer of hope and that's what keeps me going, but I'm terrified that that glimmer is going to go out.
I just can't handle my life anymore. I just want it all to stop. Just for a minute, so I can have a break.
~ Megan
"Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger."
thing is, last time someone admitted they where having personal problems she was so unsympathetic and spent weeks bitching about them behind their backs, it wasn't good. I think I might speak to the boss above her though if i get the chance as she is lovely. if she ever comes back to play with us.
but tbh i'm sick of trying to hold on and finding a reason.
givemethismoment - Is there anyone to help you when you feel this helpless? Or a helpline you can call? Sometimes we just need someone else to show us the glimmer of hope is still there. Katy - I'm sorry she's like that; I know one of my managers was so I didn't speak to her. I hope you can talk to the one above her. It really might help you. It's hard but if you can keep fighting just a little longer things will look up.
x Katie x
Good morning all.
Sending hugs to everyone who would like one.
Katie- How are you doing darling? Are you any less hyped up? Did you get any sleep? I will be thinking of you today with your brother. Keep us posted. Cuddles.
Doctor Colbertface- I know it can be hard talking to people hun, just try your best to find someone you trust the most- the manager above sounds like a good option. Hang in there hun. x
givemethismoment- There is always a glimmer if you look hard enough hun- I think Katie is right that sometimes we need someone else to point it out to us. Hold on to the fact that you 'just want it all to stop. Just for a minute, so I can have a break.' Remember that suicide is more than just for a minute. There are so many other ways to get a break like you speak of. Stay safe x
Charmed- Just wanted to send you some hugs- you always helpful, don't ever think otherwise! How are you today? x
long road- please hang in there hun. I know your struggling with the intrusive thoughts at the moment, but please try to fight them and if you can't ask someone for help. Impulsively is bad news hun. Just try to stay safe, at your parents of otherwise. Keep talking. PM me anytime. x
Right- I can only apologise if I have missed anyone etc. I'm always around guys, PM me if you ever need anything, anything at all.
Keep safe, Stay strong. xRolix
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Reason: it wasn't neat enough.
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
