rowie, i started a proper reply to you yesterday but internet died, re the costume, not sure i look great lol, how are you?
i am so fed up of my weight, wish i could find the motivation i once had :( been looking at the gym again, its changed management so might have to get my ass in gear and get going again
I need to get my butt to the gym/swimming pool as well. Motivation, where are you?!! Thankfully I have Tilly now and in three weeks she can go walking, which means I shall have to go walking too!
Thanks for the welcomes. I'm in the US...
I basically went to a shrink, got borderline as a diagnosis and was told that I was hurting my family and needed to stop. Problem is- I don't hurt my family...I bottle everything up. Grr...
It's me, and I can't get myself to go away
Oh God I shouldn't feel this way
Reach down your hand in your pocket
Pull out some hope for me
It's been a long day, always ain't that right
And no Lord your hand won't stop it
Just keep you trembling
It's been a long day, always ain't that right
Broken ~ Did they explain why they felt you were hurting your family? If only it was as simple as to just 'stop'. Any suggestions on how to help you?
I think it was because of the SI stuff...but she had only talked with me for fifteen minutes max before she tried to explain that I had an illness that made me difficult and selfish. >.<
It's me, and I can't get myself to go away
Oh God I shouldn't feel this way
Reach down your hand in your pocket
Pull out some hope for me
It's been a long day, always ain't that right
And no Lord your hand won't stop it
Just keep you trembling
It's been a long day, always ain't that right
That must have been really hard for you. It is so sad that there is so much stigma attatched to BPD. My consultant is not exactly sympathetic to it either - not that I expect loads of sympathy, but I suppose some understanding that it isn't a lifestyle choice would be nice.
Hi peeps... haven't been around for a while. just thought i'd update you..
I'm getting married in 3 months and i'm 8 weeks pregnant! i've been kept n the quetiapine at a low dose to try and keep me stable... i haven't sh-ed in a few months anyway...possibly the longest i've ever gone not doing it...
My anxiety has got so bad...i can't get myself out alone and i am feeling low.. but i'm not telling my midwife cos i think she'll make it difficult... might speak to my gp about it or something. got my first scan on the 13th march... everything is all go... oh and we're waiting to hear if we've passed the tenant referencing .
My ex-boss has invited me to a focus group about BPD and what helps or hinders recovery. I said i'd come but i'm quite anxious because the last time I saw my boss my anxiety was so high and I kept twitching and stuff. Being around her or thinking about her makes me anxious again and I worry that I might make a fool of myself. It'll be a bit emotional anyway sharing my experiences.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
