feeling realy alone atm, i kinda decidedyesterday i am going to try and stop sh again.... :/ i did have one urge then prayed and it passed, its not been to hard yet... stupid saying that its only been two days but im getting more and more serious about it and am scared that in about a weeks time everything will get too much and i just wont be able to cope and i will have just been kidding myself that i can stop.. just need some advice on 2 things:
1 ways in which i can prepare myself for more difficult times to come
2 how to keep it up if i do actually manage to pull it off
realy greatful for any kind of help thanks xx
*burns the bandwagon* >:) im evil. you all need to learn how to chillax
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
victoria: this might seem kind of silly, but i was just reminded today that for me, prevention is just as important as anything else. it's a lot easier not to SH if you don't have strong urges, and taking care of yourself can help with that. get enough sleep, eat well (take vitamins if you have to), excersize (there's more than one way to get those endorphins!), and deal with your emotions as they come up. journaling is a wonderful way to do that. stay organized and try not to get behind in school work. generaly do what you can to avoid making life more stressful. spend time with God on a regular basis. don't wait until you're in the middle of a crisis to practice your coping skills, because you won't. use them every day, and then when something DOES happen you'll be in the habit of taking good care of yourself.
maybe this all seems obvious and you've heard it before, but it really does work. i'll admit i used to ignore people who told me those sorts of things, and when i finally started taking care of myself i was realy shocked at how big of a difference it made. :)
also, even if you slip up, keep taking care of yourself. even if you decide you aren't ready to stop yet, i think you'll find that you get less and weaker urges to SH when you take care of yourself.
I need some help, he past few weeks I have been skipping church. It's not that I no longer believe in God or anything, I am just really struggling to get up on a morning...I feel so tired and low all the time...its exausting. And I find having to make converstaion and be 'normal' at church really exhausts me. I feel like a social recluse and do not really want to see people, which just adds to my lonleyness.
1.How can I push myself to attend church??
2.How can be myself when at church, without having to explain myself all the time and telling people my lifestory. I do not want to pretend to be happy all the time anymore...im sick of caring what people think all the time.
So.. I'm planning to attend a support group for mental disorders tomorrow night and I'm a little nervous. I'm not so nervous about the actual group (though when I get there I'm sure I will start ..) but I'm pretty nervous about the fact that it's an after hours young adult group, so I will have to ring a doorbell at the main office to be let up. Being a female, and the fact that it's in another city makes me feel a bit unsafe. I have talked to the office manager at the place where it's held, and he is going to stick around for the meeting to meet me.. so I'm hoping I can get there before it closes so that I could atleast feel safer with a bunch of people to begin with.
Again.. just wanted to vent about that since it's on my mind. Please pray that it'll go well if it's God's will.
Why won't God help me out more? Please please please don't let my Plan be to take another semester off. Please, I'm SO close to graduating. Can't He just let me do this?? Can't He just help me a little more? Any thing more would help!
one_step_closer: It's when you go to church or somewhere and you just feel His presence. When you can just sit without thinking and it feels like all your thoughts are pouring out and He sees and knows how you're feeling... When something bad happens and His touch helps you cry and you just know He's sitting there with you... He's everywhere, He's in your friends, in your family, in everyday things. When you can look around and see Him everywhere... When you see Him everywhere, trust is no longer an issue - how would you not trust someone so powerful to be able to be present everywhere, at all times?
Defyodds - It's so great that your nearly graduating! Be proud of yourself :) Also by what your saying it seems that perhaps you blame God or don't believe he is going to come through for you...is this so?
Jacie~ I'm the same way... I mean, I'm a perfectionist workaholic, so my self worth is all wrapped up in this... I'll definitely be praying for you a lot, because I completely understand how you're feeling.
I'm always a text away since I can't check this as often as I'd like...
Guys.... I could really use some big time prayer right now.. I posted another thread in this place.. But I really need prayer that I can continue to fight againist Satan and not give into this... Please...
*Megan*
"The LORD your God is with you,he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." ~ Zephaniah 3:17
"Cheer Up. Tommorow will be different. Not Better. Just Different." ~ Barbara Johnson
Defyodds - It's so great that your nearly graduating! Be proud of yourself :) Also by what your saying it seems that perhaps you blame God or don't believe he is going to come through for you...is this so?
After this semester I have 10 credits. Sometimes I think that is so close, sometimes I think it is so far away. I could take 3 credits over the summer, it could even be a 101 course - I'm just shy of credits outside of my major. Then I would have two classes and one credit worth of tutoring to come back to (that is if I found someone who needs a housemate - part time students can't live on campus)
I feel like I have been through so much that God isn't protecting me. Like He should and He isn't. I did the whole thing where I picture the event and picture Jesus. It was powerful, but now another event has happened. I'm not recovering from it. It has made me start cutting. I just want this phase to be done with. I want this to be my past. I want to stop being haunted. I know He doesn't punish people but sometimes I wonder if I did something wrong and that is what is happening.
So much has happened, I don't trust Him. I started trusting Him again and then this thing happened a few months ago and out that went
Defyodds - I know that you feel that God is not protecting you, but In my experience when I have felt like God has not been there, he has actually been there and been strengthening my faith day by day. These times are sent to test us hun. You may find the following article by a preacher called Joyce Meyer helpful.
Would anyone mind helping me pray for my friend (she passed away in July and it's her birthday today (well yesterday now I think)). I want to pray but can't find the words.
Also I think I've sinned a lot tonight. The last church service I went to we had a sermon about drinking and I've drunk quite a bit tonight and I feel very ashamed but it was either that or 'worse' stuff. I feel very guilty about it.
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
