I hate having BPD. It sucks. I've just been to see my psychologist but it feels like no one can see past the label. She said that I almost threatened suicide in my last email, when actually I said I should kill myself but i'm not going to. It kind of felt like I was getting in trouble and it upset me. She asked if I was upset by what she said and I said no.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Sorry you had a rough time with your psychologist. I often feel like nobody sees past the label. Well, very few people anyway. Do you think you could e-mail her and say that what she said did upset you but you felt unable to say so in the session? My psychotherapist (who is a specialist in BPD so thankfully sees a person rather than a label) often checks out with me how I have taken things and he says he would rather know if he has upset me because it's not his intention. *Hugs*
Thanks for the hugs. I don't feel able to tell her, I have spent so many years trying to hide my negative emotions from people, it's like I can't let my guard down.
How are you both today?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
hi guys hope ur all ok sorry my minds bit fuzzled from the appts today
excuse me for thinking outloud but i just wanted to see how u all interpret this but i had meeting with my cpn today and we were chatting and he asked me how id been coping and i said ok and told him how many times id overdosed and i know it is less than before xmas but everyone is normalising it and deep down i know its not.
then basically we were talking bout the support i was getting now since coming out of hosp and the deal was that i was to get through uni and then when i came home support wud be in place to get me "better" and he was like i reckon u will be fine once u graduate.. my issues wont disapear once i graduate they will possibly ghet worse as when im home my mental health is worse.... so what do i do sorry for this
^ *Hugs* Sorry but I can't really say much more than that right now.
I'm feeling really bad. I know I should go sleep but I just can't see the point as of why. I'll just wake up in the morning to do the same shitty day and everything. So whats the point? Maybe i'll just stay up all of tonight and sleep tomorrow. I dont know.
Lorraine, I can relate to that feeling. I got in to a bad pattern of sleeping all day to escape it, and staying up all night. Thing is, it only makes things worse and you are already feeling awful so you need to do everything you can to make sure that doesn't escalate. x
Everybody stay strong ladies. My ex let himself into the flat a few hours ago whilst drunk and said if I called the police bad things would happen, but I called the police, and they took him away and took his keys off him.
It was very hard for me to ask for help tonight but I did it and I'm a lot better than I could've been if I'd just let him stay in the flat.
Sometimes you don't wanna say you're not okay and you don't want to ask for help, because you think there are bad consequences on the horizon. People are there to help and they do if you ask them. I hope you guys have good days today. I'm gonna get some damn sleep!
I'm feeling really bad. I know I should go sleep but I just can't see the point as of why. I'll just wake up in the morning to do the same shitty day and everything. So whats the point?
My thoughts exactly.
I've just been diagnosed with BPD, what a load of ****. So hi everyone.
*Huggles Threalings* I know I'm plain lazy but I can't even focus on the few threads since last night .... I will try and keep up throughout the day though.
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