out of ashes- Sending cuddles.
You have come to the right place. We all struggle with this time of the year, so pull up a seat and have a hot chocolate with us.
Why do you struggle at this time in particular hun?
I know its tempting hun, but suicide isnt the answer. No matter what the question. Things can and will get better- unless your dead, then they can't.
Hugs xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
hmm thanks, sits down and drinks a hot chocolate. what if tho, the thing I am trying to change will never happen. And I am left stuck in this shell for the rest of my life. I cant live like this.
Feeling like I don't have much to live for right now. Trying to deal with it on my own but the thoughts keep coming back. I know how it would affect my loved ones and it's about the only thing stopping me at this point. I dunno, just getting it out there not that itll do a lot of good or anything.
Is there some meaning to this life?What purpose lies behind the strife?
Whence do we come, where are we bound? These cold questions echo and resound through each day, each lonely night.
We long to find the splendid light that will cast a revelatory beam
upon the meaning of the human dream.
If you ever need anything I am only a message away
freakangel- sorry your feeling so bad right now.
Hold on to your reason to live as tightly as possible- even if it is the only thing keeping you going- its still there and its still real.
Do you know why you feel so bad at the moment hun?
I know all about thoughts coming back- they are annoying like that.
Hugs
Sending hugs to all xStay safex
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Good morning all. How are you guys? Anyone got plans today? Hugs to all who find these days hard... Thinking of you.
I want to come off my meds. I'm still considering it. Stupid idea right? I know you'll say yes. These meds just screwed with my body so bad before. And I want to be me. But being me is really painful. But maybe with no meds at all I'd go back to feeling ok. That's what I think
Fuck it, I can't do it any more, they lie and tell you things will get better when they never do, they lie and tell you they will help and they never do, they just want to trick you into opening up and then throw you away when they've had their fun.
Non volo I'm so sorry you are feeling so frustrated and angry and down. Who is doing this?? I know how you feel. This stuff is so hard. Super hugs to you. Please be safe
Hey Rachel- How are you hun? I am sorry you want to come off your meds. They might just help a little at the moment. Do you remember about the thoughts in your head and thinking someone is putting them there etc. Well the meds might help reduce that. I know its hard hun. But please just try them for a little longer- at leave talk about coming off them with your Dr, dont just stop.
Hugs xx
Non volo- I am sorry your struggling hun. Same as Mum24 really- who is doing this? Is this about trying to get help and not being able too? Who have you opened up to? Here for you xx
Thanks for asking Rachel, I'm not that great. I am writing, well attempting to write a piece of coursework for uni (I am pretending to be a fully functioning individual who is capable of finishing this blasted degree). How about you hun. What are you plans?
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Its nice to see you Katie.
Well its ok you don't have words for us... Because I have some for you...
Your amazing, wonderful and fabulous person.
You can fight this.
I think about you often but don't want to stalk you.
I want you to know that I am always here for you.
Oooodles of Hugs xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Getting by, thanks for the support I'm trying to hold onto that reason of loved ones being affected badly so I do not do anything, but then I wonder if maybe after I get the turkey and food and all would maybe it just be better if I was gone. I dunno just the depression talking. Life has just been really hard this year, lot of financial, health, and other struggles. I am constantly in pain be it from my depression and Borderline personality disorder or physical from my lupus. Money issues well most people have them so I guess I houldnt gripe to much. College and work just stresses me out beyond beliefs but I have to continue on with them, there is no taking a break from life. I'm just gonna keep trying to trudge ahead in life at this time although I feel like I should just give up. I dunno.
Is there some meaning to this life?What purpose lies behind the strife?
Whence do we come, where are we bound? These cold questions echo and resound through each day, each lonely night.
We long to find the splendid light that will cast a revelatory beam
upon the meaning of the human dream.
If you ever need anything I am only a message away
freakangel- I'm really sorry this year has been a tough one. I really hope nest year is a little better for you.
I know what you mean about not being able to take a break from life- I felt like that this time last year, I felt I would stand still and everything would just rush past- however, I then 'stopped time' effectively and took a year out from my Uni studies. I am not suggesting you do the same, just be aware that you can't stop life altogether but sometimes there are ways to ease it and slow it down a little, just so you can catch up.
All troubles are significant hun, it makes no difference how many people are experiencing them, they are still real and poignant in our lives and deserve to be acknowledged as influential of we run the risk of not dealing with them. Its always those ones, the ones we don't pay any attention to, that trip us up later along the line.
I really hope you can hang onto those reasons hun. Then in time I hope you can find a reason that doesn't involve others. A reason for yourself as why you should stick around for you. I think thats the most important thing. But for now- anything that keeps you safe is good enough.
Here for you hun, xRolix
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Freakangel. I often feel like that about life. Hang in there hon. And please don't kill yourself after Christmas. It would still be painful for everyone and I just don't want you to die. Hugs
Roli.. I pretend to be fully functioning every day. I hope your paper goes well. I hope you feel better soon. We're in this together and I'm here for you. How are you coping?
Katie. You don't need words. Love you
Yeah I will keep taking the meds. I have to really watch what i eat cuz I don't want to gain weight again. These meds are so bad for that. Hmm I'm feeling a bit loopy today. Haha. I'm like all over the place. But it's a better day so I'll take it.
Rachel- I am very glad you are having a 'better day' even if it is a littl loopy :P
I am glad your going to continue on your meds (I had antipsychotics for a while and they are a bitch sometimes but worth it in the end... till you take them all )
Thank you for asking how I am. I really appreciate it.
I have been better, but have been worse, so I guess thats good overall.
I haven't run away yet but there is still time. It was the 27th Dec last year. Plenty of time to give up and take off... don't you think?
Cuddles xx
*Curls up, writes essay*
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
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but there is still time. It was the 27th Dec last year. Plenty of time to give up and take off... don't you think?