My abusive ex has moved out. Well, his stuff is still here for later collection, but he is sleeping in his new flat. I am safe. I can even put the chain on so his key can't bother me.=]
Hey Lorraine welcome to the thread I'm
Helen :). I wish I had more helpful advice re abandonment issues but I'm afraid I get like that a lot too, one thing you could try is writing a list of evidence for and against your friend etc being genuine and caring about you. The trick is to only use stuff that would stand up in court rather than what's emotionally behind you thinking things. I always find I can never find real proof for the thoughts I have in my head. Sorry I have sucked so badly at trying to explain that and it's probably been no help, sorry again!
Rosalina - I agree with tig that is awesome news. I'm happy for you.
For the first time this week I'm pretty happy and content it's a nice feeling. Hope you all have a good night and massive huggles to anyone that wants or needs them x
Mari, I'm sorry abotu your flatmates wish there was an easy answer, x
I have rehearsals today, and once again getting out of bed has made me feel slightly tearful, wish it was all over, had such an iffy week mind wise but i hope being there might perk me up.
as for yesterdays positive, the meal was nice, random as the pub ppl had grouped my mum n dad away from the rest of usbut the food was good.
Claire - I'm sorry to hear you're feeling bad about today again, I hope it improves for you. And I'm glad you had a good meal last night, thats a good possitive.
Thanks Helen.
I don't think any of the reasons I'm feeling abandoned is logical, it's just how I'm feeling and it feels horrible.
I had a possible girlfriend I've been speaking to, and now I have told her about my BPD she says she needs to think. I'm scared that because of it she's going to abandon me too. I guess time will tell.
Yeah I guess the whole point of it is to show that it's not logical, sorry lorraine I'm still useless at advice. Yeah telling people about bpd can some times scare people off cause its a kindda scary name, I hope she manages to be ok with it. My girlfriend is like my lifeline sometimes.
Sorry to hear that mark try not to stress about it, I'm sure it'll go ok for you. Sending you massive huggles x
Helen - When we first started talking she knew I suffered with mental illness. I told her my psychiatrist suspected BPD, but now he's actually diagnosed me I guess it makes the whole thing a lot more serious. I'm hoping she'll be okay with it too.
Yeah i really dont see how the flat is going to get better, seems like the friends i do have here have better things to do then meet up with me, and im not in uni much now.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
thanks guys, just got back and feeling ok now, i suspected doing 'opposite to the urge' would make things better (except the urge to tell a certain someone to shut the f up lol)
now more til wednesdays final rehearsal.
mark - try not to stress too much (i know easier said than done) is someone going with you?
~Grace~ - I'm sorry, I don't know how you like to be addressed, so I just put your username.
I am so sorry things are bad for you right now.
I don't know what to say to help, just keep strong.
