The Honesty Box - Page 11

28-04-2009, 04:44 PM

i just want to disappear nothing i say or do is ever good enough and i'm always the one who has to change when other people should too i don't think i actually want to die i just wish i had never been born and i wanted to cut so bad awhile ago but i ended up punching myself instead it didn't work as good as cutting but it calmed the urge a little bit

Pomegranate · 29-04-2009, 12:43 AM

I have started throwing up again. I will lose the 4.5 stone since those days, and more. I will do, I have to. If I can't then I will die in the process. I can't stand living like this anymore. I hate it. I feel like I am ready to explode, like something is crawling and agitating under my skin. I hate me, I hate who I am, even thin I don't think that would change. The only solution for freaks like me is to cease living and pray that they can find someone strong enough to carry the coffin.

wildly insane · 29-04-2009, 10:26 AM

I want to hurt more

~Grace~ · 29-04-2009, 01:52 PM

I am really scared today and i feel so alone and everything is agitating me

ThinkingofRecovery · 29-04-2009, 05:28 PM

The damage I have sustained actually gives me another way to harm or even kill myself.

MammaMia · 30-04-2009, 02:21 AM

I want to cut even more. Running out of room in that section, never thougt I would get this bad. Bollocks.

zowie · 30-04-2009, 11:43 AM

I don't deserve to recover.

~Grace~ · 30-04-2009, 09:22 PM

i really cant do this anymore
i mean...i really cant

sparklyshoes · 01-05-2009, 01:55 AM

I'm sick of wanting to be vomit after everything I eat :(

Slip · 01-05-2009, 04:40 PM

I feel nothing & I'm scared I never will.

Pomegranate · 01-05-2009, 05:31 PM

Jodie OD'd and it has just triggered me to take the tablets I bought the other day. Trying not too but it's really hard.

discovery_journey · 02-05-2009, 06:05 AM

i'm sick of eating until my skin feels like it will split and the vomit rises in my throat... and I tried to make myself sick this week for the first time in years

farawayfairy · 02-05-2009, 06:07 AM

I took a small overdose tonight. Not to kill myself (although I am suicidal) but to try and get out of having to go our tonight/tomorrow night.

PaperClip · 06-05-2009, 12:21 AM

im scared of my life changing back to how it was!

Pomegranate · 06-05-2009, 02:56 AM

I hate myself. I am so scared of being left alone. I can't cope with this. I need to harm, to OD or SOMETHING. Cutting just isn't doing it, regardless of how deep the wounds are or how many stitches they get. I hate this.

~Grace~ · 10-05-2009, 09:58 AM

i used to care. i dont anymore
just wish i had the energy to carry it through
maybe i will find it in time

Tears of Solitude · 10-05-2009, 07:23 PM

The trouble with love is, that it can tear you up inside. xxx

MammaMia · 10-05-2009, 07:27 PM

He makes me feel such a slut & triggers the hell out of me. Yet I think I'm still lusting for him (and someone else).

MammaMia · 10-05-2009, 07:29 PM

Oh and I just found out someone overdosed, I should have realised shouldn't I? :'( I feel such a bad friend. I am a BAD friend.

pixiedust31 · 10-05-2009, 11:07 PM

i hate myself i want to cut but i dont want to break my promise or anyone heart its so much pressure not to