OK now I'm worried
I';m worried sick
Crazy
And what worries me more is how worried I am
It means I actually are unbelievably
And that can't be right
****!
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Wait
Why are you telling me all this?
Why are you ****ing with my head?
Just
Why??
I don't understand
I'm not going to cry over this
I can't
It takes a hell of a lot to make me cry and if I cry over this....
You're my best friend
Sad as it may be, you're the best friendI've ever had, despite everything. And I'll always care about you. You're like, the sister I never had. The best friend.... I couldn't bare losing you.... I'm scared....
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
You eat everyones food, you use everyones stuff without asking and dont clean it, you borrow money and dont give it back, you kept my change when it was all I had, your room stinks cos you havent had the window open in months, I cant stand living with u anymore, its driving me insane, there are 7bowls and 5plates and several grotty pans that have been sitting next to the sink for weeks that u still havnt washed and they have things growing in them and its disgusting. Please stop taking ur work thru to the living room to do and leaving it everywhere cos its everyones space, not just urs and whenu have all ur project stuff there, u take over the whole room and its not fair. Stop throwing urself at men and then telling us all about the sex uz have had cos we're really not interestd!!!!
Theres no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb.
"They dont have meetings about rainbows..."
"How will you know I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain,
to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain" C.Blout
I hate it here, i thought itd b a new start but its not. I've never felt so alone for such a long time. I hate it here so much but i have to pretend that im having so much fun cos this is costing alot of money and i feel bad. I want to go home, but theres no1 at home, cos everyones gone to uni, so I duno where home is anymore. I feel lost and floating, lyk I dont belong anywhere anymore. Not here, i hate it here.
Theres no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb.
"They dont have meetings about rainbows..."
"How will you know I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain,
to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain" C.Blout
I wish you'd just leave me alone. I don't see how anyone could want to talk to you, and I wish I'd never met you.
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
Get ready to have your world turned upside down, yet again
Oh and I'm sorry if it does, can't help it much
S'not really me, that's what I tell myself
S'not really me that wants her dead
It's the thing that nobody believes
Yeah I'm losing it
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
I know you don't try to hurt me, but whenever I look at you it's like someones stabbing my heart. Repeatedly. At the same time, I can't get enough of you. Why do you have to exist?
2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day
I don't think I'll ever get over your 'harrassment'.
I'm not strong enough.
And yet I know I'm damned lucky that you wouldn't sleep with me without my permission.
You sick ****, like I'd give you permission?
Go to hell.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
*hugs tightly* there are too many sickos in the world hun, but an awful lot of good people too ^
*hugs*
Thank you.
And yes there are. And I really do believe I'm lucky. Sadly that isn't much comfort.
Take care yeah?
To someone else,
Well two people:
You're telling me to work but I can't.
Not tonight. Not after that email. Not after drinking, my head hurts.
Sorry to be such a disappointment.
