I find it frustrating to hear when areas won't treat BPD too. But I think specialist help sounds like it could be a good idea, it might be the best thing to help. (Wow, badly articulated sentence, sorry).
I'm feeling kind of upset at the moment. Keep getting really emotional and I feel ashamed of it. So scared that I'm going to leave my current treatment no better. I tried so hard in the last TC I was at and it fell apart a few months after I left. What if I haven't worked hard enough? Also really scared of coming off my depot and what that could mean (am coming off it at the end of the month). Sorry to rant.
You aren't ranting. From what I have seen you have come forward in leaps and bounds Laura and worked hard. It won't be all undone. Coming off medication that has helped must be quite unnerving but you can always go back on it if you need to.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
He doesn't. In my experience, my consultant waited until I was at a dangerous point with the BPD and now insists the only treatment is a specialist unit. Other people, he just will keep them in the community and generally not offer much support which was what happened to me until it escalated. Which is quite sad really. I always think preventative would be so much better.
Laura ~ I don't think you are ranting. I can relate to your fears of finishing the treatment and not feeling any better, but you might be surprised at the things that have changed for you, that posssibly you don't see but others do.How much longer of the treatment do you have? I know it's easy for me to say but you don't need to feel ashamed for being emotional. x
I think I have been subject to the whole keep them in the community until it gets bad idea at times. I'm fortunate to be funded for an outpatient programme although it will only stay in place if I keep my risk low or as low as can be expected. Had to commit not to kill myself for a year to enter the dbt programme. Sorry, went off on a tangent there.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Well done doing your homework :) That's great! And for practising your skills. It sounds like you are putting a lot of effort in to it.
I'm not sure which unit they are considering currently. I know it would be medium secure. There was one in Cardiff which isn't appropriate for me and it can't be a TC. They also don't think it's appropriate for me to go to a unit which is DBT based as I've already done that and it wasn't particularly helpful. So, yep, think they are a little stuck. I've heard a mention of the Cygnet unit in Derby which is quite new so they were a little relunctant because they can't be sure how successful it is but also St Andrews.
So lots of uncertainty for you hun. That must be difficult.
There's a Cygnet unit in Bradford which uses MBT I think - mentalisation based therapy. Is that an approach you have tried before? It is in a secure hospital though and hospitaly like from what I could gather - I was at the PICU there.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
It is quite tough, I just wish they would make their minds up because sometimes it will be "We will try the community" and then a few days later "No, specialist unit is the only way". So in a way I just think, please decide so I can come to terms with it. I haven't tried MBT. I think they are looking for somewhere that does schema therapy because that did help when I started it, it's just been the difficulties in accessing it. How did you find the MBT? Or did you not access it because of the PICU? x
I didn't access any therapy as I was in the PICU so don't know what it is like, just mentioned it as it isn't so far as St Andrews. Oh, I don't know what schema therapy is.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
*hugs Lottie* I hope they find something helpful for you. I also adore your tattoo, especially the way you incorporated the orange ribbon into the butterfly!
