Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Woo lets all have a party, I'm going out to buy another botle :P
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I just ate pizza, my diet has been out the window this week
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
It does, I really don't think that I am in the 'lets go to th gym mood', im just still annoyed at my pal, she still not text me back after her rant about how she just start cutting etc, blah blah....
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate everything sometimes, i hate having an addictive personality
there is a ga meeting on at 8....whothinks i maybe shud go
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
im away to the hosp, back shortly i hope, better not be a media circus tonight
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Hi I've not been diagnosed with BPD (just moderate depression) but i totally relate to alot of whats being posted today. i'm watching the great british menu and feeling like crying and so guilty that they risk their lives every day and are celebrated as heroes and i can't even get dressed in the morning.
sometimes they come back with PTSD and they stop functioning - and they feel just the same as you do. ashamed of having a mental illness, and they feel useless and worthless. mental illness often does that to ya! it's important to take it at your own pace, challenge yourself every now and then, and know your limitations. no-one deserves a mental illness, nobody's useless, and everyone can recover. welcome to the thread :)
thanks Laura, i'm so paranoid at the mo that the voices were telling me no-one was posting after me as i'm such a bad person and a fraud and you all know about it. argh i can't bloody win
Got sorted pretty quick, a few more stitches in my arm and my bloods checked, in and out in record time...
Got to go and see my cpn tomoz and they are a bit concerned as thats twice I been in, in 2 days but im ok atm, so i'm home and a bit calmer at the moment, spose coz i know im ok...
Friend not text me back, this is going to drag fr days I bet...don't knwo why she is so mad at me, she wanted me to be honest with her and talk to her if i felt like cutting, i did and now i get an earful........ugh...
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Glad you got your cuts seen to. Having cut to require hospital treatment 2 days in a row - I can understand why they think you need some extra support.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
I know, my arms a mess. Its totally been triggered off by the gambling, I might try make a womens only gamblers anonyous meeting in glasgow tomoz nyt, i think it would help me,but they have been trying to get me to go there for over a year for help.
I think I just need to remind myself that gambling aint the answer, its a big problem, idof been fine for money this month, now im looking at 4 weeks of staying in, cinema and the gym - as i dont pay for any of that.
It seems my CPN is the duty one tomorrow, so if I call her in the morning, she wil be able to see me. Im working 7-3 though, but I think I need her right now.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
