Doikers, my sister had a similar problem, are you with that company who are threatening you?? Even if they take you to court, they will throw it out, especially if you aren't even with the same company. Have you rung them up or your housing support worker could to explain?? *cuddles* Try not to harm over the situation, I know how stressful it is, I really do :(
Hayley, so proud of you *big cuddles*
God I'm so tired, had to carry a huuuge parcel for ages!!!
Just downloaded the "stand in the rain" song, think we should pipe it through the speakers here in the virtual psych ward, it could be our theme song for the week...or longer depending on who finds a different song to put through the speakers. I'd have a few ideas but I've no idea how to do links and attatch things *hangs head in shame as 28year old technophobe*
Actually, in may 2008 I would never have thought me capable of posting online in a forum and using the word 'download' so I've come a long way, lol
Ooh, just set up an online journal, now the truth is out I guess I can be more free with how I express myself, so I'm hoping that it'll help me. I don't know how regular I'll use it or keep it up for, its just an idea....
Cancelled my friend coming round tonight, I've been in my pj's all day today and am just so drained from everything that I'm not in the mood for chat and wii fit. I think it'll be dinner and early bed, but in the meantime I'll be hanging out around here with you all.
*group huggles everyone in ward*
"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose"
"There are moments in life when the only possible option is to lose control"
Mark~ The name's Crimson. And... I agree with Helen.
*hugs everyone*
Feeling kinda triggery right about now. My mother in law joined the site yesterday eve. I created an alternate acct so she can see that profile for a while... and I'm gonna take out pics of me from the site... Kinda buffer what's here so she doesn't find anything I don't want her to... *Sigh* I had originally changed the name to something people that know me wouldn't look for and have my location as something other than Alaska but I hadn't anticipated anyone in my family joining the site. Sure they know I come round and that I support other people but they have no idea of anything else. Since I'd been on here a number of months without family incidents I put my pic on my profile.... And now I have to remove it... I hate this.
*hides in denial tent and waits for the world to go away*
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
No I'm not with the same company as the previous tennant so thats encourageing to hear. It's still so hard not to be triggered.
Earlier I HAD to get out of the flat or I would have harmed but being out meant I ran into my best friend / girlfriend which cheered me up a lot , I'm just totally in love with the woman but I won't go into that now.
Then I got back to the flat and those letters........Grrr , I'm pissed off that the guy who lived here before me hasn't contacted them and has left them chasing me ugh .
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
ok i feel a little better... I think I got everything down that could bring unwanted attn from family members... Still kinda nervous though. If she figures out which is my acct it would still be awful but I think this should at least keep her at bay for a little bit.
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
*comes back from smoking shelter* it's bloody chilly out there! Thanks for company mark, and that quote in my sig is by an author called Paulo Coelho who I love and his books have been a source of strength and inspiration for me over the years.
*huggles crimson* It's horrid that you've got to watch over your shoulder and hide things. I know that I went through a stage of not coming on here for fear people would work out it was me, and I'm going to delete my facebook account as I've family members on there paying too much attention to my goings on. Luckily now in the past 12months I've told my mum and some other family members and friends what has happened to me and my struggles, I finally feel free to be on here, say what I want/need and not have to worry. Perhaps if there is anything you really need to mention or confide then PM us, I don't really know you, but I understand you're in here and in need of people to listen and for that, I'm always here for people.
"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose"
"There are moments in life when the only possible option is to lose control"
Thanks Hayley. Yeah I am 5 years "recovered" so far as anyone close to me knows. (Excepting a friend that is also on here.) I don't want other people suffocating me with their watching me and babying me and such... So they don't know I'm here for anything more than supporting other people this time around. Some days I am only here to support other people but other... not so much. And I vent here. It's the only place I can just let loose anything I want without feeling burdensome or whatnot... But family reading my vent thread would be catastrophic on so many levels...
My family's reaction is why certain things I'd put "fan" of facebook aren't on my facebook too.
Ah well. C'est la vie.
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
I hope that makes sense... I know what I wanna say but these days it never seems to wanna come out of my head in a way other people understand it.
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
yeah makes sense to me. Its such a shame that when we find our safe haven, eventually someone comes along and makes it not quite so safe. You definately need the outlet of your vent thread and I can only imagine the extra emotions that are going through you at the thought that she might stumble across it. Damn mother in laws!! I hope I'm never a mother in law... they may always have 'good intentions' but really...well... hmm, sorry I'm waffling. I don't have any constructive advice on that one I'm afraid, just wanted you to know I was reading and paying attention.
I've just made my mum her mothers day card. Going to make my gran her birthday card in a moment. Keeping myself occupied til meds and bedtime.
*goes out to the smoking shelter*
"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose"
"There are moments in life when the only possible option is to lose control"
yup indeedy. Oh it is such a good book, I was worried too, but it has a happy ending and is really good to give you hope. I don't know what your triggers are or how easily you can be influenced but I was ok reading the book, only took me a couple of days. When I'm reading a book like that, that I know you have to read through the bad before you get to the good I just fester in bed all day reading til I get through it! Safest way and quite fun. The positivity and hope really has an impact on you as well that way rather than reading a chapter every few days or so. But each to their own....
"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose"
"There are moments in life when the only possible option is to lose control"
Been listening to "stand in the rain" on repeat whislt cardmaking - oh how I really want it to rain so I can go outside and stand in the rain! I know that there is depth to the song more than actually standing in rain, but I want to feel like I'm being proactive and actually doing something, even if that something is standing in rain... or is that just strange?!
Anyhoo, its meds and bedtime, whoohoo! When I woke this morning I was scared at how today would go, but with your help I've made it one more day. Thanks everyone - even those who haven't posted today, I know you're all out there and we're all here to support eachother.
*group huggle goodnight (or morning for those of you waking up on different continents!)*
*curls up in corner with her teddy bear and hopes to sleep free from her demons tonight*
"All battles in life serve to teach us something, even the battles we lose"
"There are moments in life when the only possible option is to lose control"
Totally not strange...
Good night and sweet dreams Hayley!
I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
I probably should force myself to go for a walk or something but I just can't face leaving the flat right now , I hate feeling so exausted . I'm just blah:P today , maybe I'll feel up to going out after lunch , earlier I got as far as the front door and just came back in :S , sorry mini rant over
* Hugs to you all *
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I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
I'm glad that you liked "Stand in the Rain" - Superchick is one of my favorite bands everrr. :) I have all of their albums I think... and listen to them all of the time. Let's see if I can pull up another good song of theirs that I think you will like...
"Crawl," also by Superchick. They're a Christian band so please if the reference(s) to God offend you, let me know & I'll delete the video from here. :) I don't mean to offend anyone, so sorry in advance!!
How is everyone this morning? *cuddles all* Sorry I've not been around, been playing WoW a fair bit, but today I will probably be on longer... will be doing schoolwork >_< and housework **gag** (lol... I am NOT a housewife!!)... so yeah. Will be taking breaks to check up on you guys, post, etc., etc. :)
I have been doing fairly well so far over spring break... spending a LOT of time in front of the computer but I got to go to my best friend's house on Monday and got to cuddle one-day-old lambs and kids (they have a farm - goats and sheep mostly, but a few beef cows, chickens, and then in the summertime, pigs). They are sooo adorable... :) I have 2 sheep but they are at my parents', and I also have a goat... can remember when they were tiny too!! Hehe...
Am so sleepy... gurgghhh. Got up at 4:30 yesterday morning & even though I took 2 naps yesterday & slept until 5:40am today, am still tired. But, am always tired, so no surprise there. >_<
*more cuddles*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Superchick are a good band from what you've posted April , I've not heard of them before but I like:) Thanx for posting the video .
I am MAKING myself go out now just a short walk by the canal I think , I don't want to go but it will do me some good I think .
* HUgs April and Frenchorn *
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
