I'm so thoroughly miserable at home. I have nothing to do, and nobody at all is around because they're at university, or on some amazing holiday, or are off doing work experience. I have a job lined up, which is good, and I'm visiting the boyfriend next Wednesday for a few days... But I'm just lacking social interaction, so much. There is only so many times I can go to the pub with Dad and some family friends before I do feel that I'm just out of place. They're lovely people, and we do get on so well, but they're older and clearly older, and we talk about things - work and things - that I have no relevance to. I mean, we're talking people in their mid-forties here.
And what scares me is that there is nothing I can do to change this - people are going to be away, and I can't do anything about that. I could move back up to university, but annoyingly my uni friends seem to be the few people in the country who have actually gone home for the holidays.
And, it's a further three hours to my boyfriend's house from there.
Sorry.
I know I'm talking about this loads, and I'm sorry to be so boring.
My mood is just so changeable at the moment; I'm finding it quite difficult to deal with.
Sowi Em!
*gives you special Em hugs to make up for it*
I've been okay thanks Aimee, however my new fitness drive is going down the pan. My rented rowing machine is laying untouched in a corner of our sitting room and I honestly can't find the motivation to start up again.
How are you though Aimee?
How are you Em?
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
OMG so many people said hi to me before I could reply, thanks guys!
Hey Lolly I feel for you, it's pretty overcast here too.
Jo I completely get how you feel, I'm in pretty much the same situation (but I think I'm even lacking pub socialisation!)
Is there really nothing you can do to change that though? I mean yes you're right you can't change people going away but would it be possible to meet up with some of your friends who have gone home?
What about friends from school you may not have seen for a while?
Maybe this could be a time to focus on yourself and start meeting new people too if you feel up for it? Is there anything you like to do around where you live like club, groups etc?
It's great that you have a job lined up though, maybe you'll have some ready made friends there!
And honestly you're not being boring hon, like I said I completely get how you feel and I think practically everyone who comes home form uni feels like that at some point, you're not alone :)
You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
Is eating worth getting dressed for?
I'm all aloooone, there's no food in the house and I'm just trying to toss up the ideas.
I'm also horrifically hungover due to naturally thinking that alcohol helps with breakups. It doesn't, it results in embarrassing voicemails and severe sickness.
Just as a heads up ((Y)
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
Alex, it is. Just the act of getting up, showered and dressed can make you feel better. I've spent so many days wondering why should I even get out of bed, let alone get dressed, but on the days I do, well, they tend to be better.
I actually went into town today :) which is a good 30 minute walk there, and same back again. Had a shakeaway, but oh it was good. Wouldn't have had that if I didn't leave the house. So I'm feeling better.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
Arwen, it only opened a couple of months ago. It's really awfully laid out though, it doesn't work :/
In other news, I just made a cracking steak. Mmmmmm.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
I feel so big today. Like hugeley big seeing as last week I did nothing but eat and barely left the house. Today I started a detox, went to the gym and had a good session and then came back/prepared dinner/went out and walked my mates dogs. I still feel huge :(
But Shakeaway is a shop that basically will take almost any chocolate bar (and other stuff) and turn it into a milkshake. Other stuff, like fruits (obviously), muffins, cheesecakes, sweets, etc. etc. Apparently they exist in Aus and NZ too.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
Kate you were right, I did head out to Sainsburys and it did help for that little bit - granted I came home got straight back into my pjamas and hated on life some more, but it was good for that bit :)
Shakeaway is love <3
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
