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[Mum24]

Hugs Amant. Stay awake. Talk to someone. Hugs

[Mum24]

I'm fine. Ha. Everything is just fine now.

[getting_by]

Amant- sorry to hear your struggling hun. Try to tell someone how your feeling. This feeling won't last forever.

Mum24- are you ok honey? Why is it all fine now? Whats going on?

Katie- Are you holding up darling? Hugs tight xx

[Mum24]

I don't know. I'm in the waiting room waiting to see my therapist. Don't know if I will say anything or how it will go.

[Heaven Knows]

Good luck Mum24. Try to be honest with him. It'll all be okay, promise <3
x Katie x

[Mum24]

I'm scared Katie.

[Heaven Knows]

*massive supporting hugs*
I know you are, I know it's scary. I was scared yesterday <3 but it will be okay. Honestly. They can support you better when they know the truth okay? We're all here for you.
x Katie x

[Mum24]

But I'm not sure what I think any more. I'm not sure if what I was thinking is quite true. So I don't know if I sh

[Mum24]

Should say anything.

[Heaven Knows]

I think you still need to honey; even if you're not thinking/feeling it right now. You felt it. You thought it. They should know about it <3 They're all there to help you honey. Please, let them?
x Katie x

[Mum24]

I told him. He was nice to me. He said he thinks that I'm under a period of high stress and am having psychotic thoughts (meaning not based in reality). But we talked about it for quite a while. I didn't tell him like everything but he just said the thought that if I keep seeing them that I'm going to die is not a real thought. When I was leaving he left it up to me if I wanted to book another appointment or not. I hesitated but I did. I still feel confused and convinced that I'm not psychotic and that my thoughts are right. He said that's how strong they are. Sigh. I feel like by going to the appt and everything I am just playing into the enemy's hands. I am already doomed. I suck you guys. I want to cry.

[Heaven Knows]

*massive hugs*
You did so well honey, well done! I'm proud of you for talking to him about it. You're not psychotic honey, it's just the thoughts. The way my DBT therapist put it was like imagine each thought which comes into your head as a cloud and watch it float right back out again; like say to yourself "Okay, that's a thought but the truth is...". It can sometimes help.
x Katie x

[getting_by]

Just wanted to leave some hugs.
Your all doing amazingly guys
Stay strong
xxx

[Mum24]

I want to cry so bad. I can't stop my head. I knew having an appt was bad. Having a teflon mind isn't working. How am I going to make it through the weekend?

[Mum24]

Hugs Roli u ok?
Hugs Katie. U r awsom

[getting_by]

*curls up*
Not really. Sigh.
*Hides*

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs roli and rachel*
*sends love to you both*
You guys can do this. I'm here for you both <3 xxx

[Mum24]

Roli, what's going on honey? Sending squishy hugs and supportive thoughts your way.

Katie how are you tonight?

Apparently I'm losing my mind. I called an anonymous crisis support line tonight and she was mucho concerned. (She was also appalled that my therapist says it's ok that I cut myself as long as I try better coping strategies first.). I just want control back again. I'm completely losing control.

[Mum24]

She also said I should tell my psychiatrist everything on Monday. Everything. I'm having a panic attack just thinking about it.

[Heaven Knows]

*hugs Rachel*
It'll be okay honey. If you can, try to tell your psychiatrist <3
x Katie x