frustration doesnt even come close. my gp told me the other day that i had a personality disorder. which i dont have!! she said that because of this she didnt know what to believe. this made me really angry and hurt. i have yet to see the psych again but she has written to my cpn to say she thinks i have cyclothymia. my cpn is of the oppinion that i am most definatly bipolar. so i have a reassesment meeting with the psych a week on thursday. i have been started on a mood stabilizer lamotragine (sp?) have you heard of it? experienced it? since i have been on it i have felt like i am full manic and depressed all at the same time!! i feel so tired trying to keep my thoughts feelings and behaviours in check. also i was half way through cbt with my cpn be when i saw her last she said that she feels at a loss in respect of therapy and her main role has shifted to being a support for me in anyway possible untill there is a formal diagnoses made in which everyone agrees. she also said that she didnt feel i was stable enough to compleate cbt at this point and that we need to work on getting meds sorted first before any therapy can be decided on.
i just dont know what to be going at the moment ahhhhhhhhhh!!!
wow cat, that sounds incredibly fustrating.
lamotragine, yeah i've heard of it, they considered it for me, but as it takes so long to work they had to dismiss it as i was on my way off on one really. however, my pysch has talked about putting me on it if i have any depressive episodes, as well as the lithium. was meant to see him yesterday but he forgot he had me and left. nice. i was left waiting for over an hour for no reason. twats. and me being low, he would have considered starting it now. oh well. wont see him for another month at least. either i'll be fine, or dead by then. idiot.
sorry i'm ranting. but i can relate that mental health people are incredibly fustrating, and horrible. especially pyschs.
hope things level out for you
hows everyone else doing?
xxx
i mean like, the anti depressants theyr so damn sure they want me on, that make me manic or send me into a mixed episode. and then anitpsychotics slowing me down too much so that i crash back into a depression faster than usual
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silent dancer - have they tried you on anything that is more of an actual mood stabiliser and not primerily an antipyschotic or an anti depressent?
xxx
iv been on lamictal but that was shocking for me, and throughout the process of trying antidepressants and anti psychotics iv been on an increasing dose of epilim, up to 1500mg now. just been started on Abilify a week or so ago to replace risperidone i was on (again, terrible for me) and it seems to be working quite well
hey,
how is everyone!
silentdancer- sorry to hear you havent found the right meds yet :( i am in a similar process myself at the moment and it is just hellish.
hope you get there soon!!
I've had an awful few days, my depression is really affecting my uni course already had to have my end of year recital deferred twice from last year, its now in a months time and we are expected to do at least 3 hours practice a day and i dont have the motivation, also i'm really negative with my playing and get angry with myself in my lesson.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
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silent dancer - glad that the abilify/aripiprazole, same thing isnt it?! is working ok so far, its so weird how meds work so differently for each person, its amazing pyschs can find any meds that work! i was on abilify and it was shocking for me! but really pleased it seems to be ok so far with you!
sorry about your depression frenchhorn. :(
how are you doing cat?
xxx
*awkwardly comes in* Hello. How is everyone? Quick question. How can you tell when you're having an episode? I've been in a generally high mood for about three weeks. I do have bipolar, but my mom doesn't think I'll ever be in a manic state.
hi chloe! erm how can you tell? how do you mean? like what happens, what symptoms you get or something else? why does your mom think that?
you;ve been diagnosed quite young! how long you been diagnosed for?
sorry looks like i'm drilling you!
hope your ok!
xxx
Yeah, I mean, how can you tell? Or is it hard to tell? I was diagnosed about three months ago, but I've only ever had episodes of depression. But I'm not depressed anymore and I feel my mood going higher.
ahh ok! i spose it can be hard to tell if your in the manic episode. not sure. for me signs of getting there and being hypomanic, are, not sleeping, or sleeping 3 hours or less a night, my creative output goes thru the roof, i get really fidgety have to be doing something, i talk a lot and get annoyed when people dont keep up, plan stupid things that just wont happen realisticly, get more promiscuous and then when i'm actually manic, its the not sleeping talking to much plus i hallucinate, am dellusional etc, more or less a pyschotic episode.
i think i listed a few signs at the start of this thread! may not have tho!
hope you dont mind me asking, but how did they diagnose you if you've never had a manic episode?
xxx
Last edited by Kija : 03-10-2009 at 06:11 PM.
Reason: forgot something!
Thanks! Oh, well, I have type II. So I have hypomania instead of regular mania. Though, I've never had a hypomanic episode. But I used to have rapid cycling a few months ago, which is also part of type II(I think?)and I used to hallucinate. That's how I was diagnosed.
hello all!
how are we?
i am feeling the lowest i have ever felt. i think!
over the last wee while i have been suffering a mixed episode. which i tried to bring to the attention of my psych. who originally ignored me!!! since then things had got worste and eventually my meds got changed and they added quetiapine along with lamotriagine which i feel has sent me in to a deep depression it think. i know no matter what i tell the professionals that are ment to look after me will disregard anything i say until i hit crisis point! i am really feed up at the moment
dont even feel like the really me (cries) :(
