When hearing voices telling you to kill yourself becomes normal
When going to A+E becomes regular
Flipping out and making a show of yourself when your not well
The look on your familys faces when they see scars or cuts
Hurting the people you love ^^
When your 3 years behind everyone else your age who are going to uni because you've spent so much time in hospital you couldn't keep up with the work
Feeling so isolated from other people because they're lives are so different from yours
Not being able to keep a job
Hospitals
Being sectioned
Being strip searched
Being restrained
Being injected with something to sedate you against your will, when you don't *want* to be sedated
Being jumped on, handcuffed and thrown in a policevan and treated like a criminal when you've never broken a law in your life because
your not well
^^^
All of the above being so traumatising that when I see a policeman in the street I have to walk another way to where I'm going
and the flashbacks of being jumped on an IM'd making me shudder and cringe ten times a day
Having your rights taken away from you by someone else (even if its for your own good)
*Knowing* that someone has the power to do that to you
Medication making you feel ill
Having to take medication just to function
When all of the above becomes normal and happens constantly
SUCKS!!!
Last edited by alienshe_cheesycake : 01-04-2009 at 06:11 PM.
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
When hearing voices telling you to kill yourself becomes normal
Flipping out and making a show of yourself when your not well
Hurting the people you love ^^
Feeling so isolated from other people because they're lives are so different from yours
Hospitals
Being sectioned
Being restrained
Being injected with something to sedate you against your will, when you don't *want* to be sedated
Being jumped on, handcuffed and thrown in a policevan and treated like a criminal when you've never broken a law in your life because
your not well
^^^
All of the above being so traumatising that when I see a policeman in the street I have to walk another way to where I'm going
and the flashbacks of being jumped on an IM'd making me shudder and cringe ten times a day
Having your rights taken away from you by someone else (even if its for your own good)
*Knowing* that someone has the power to do that to you
Medication making you feel ill
Having to take medication just to function
Yeah I agree with those ones.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
- being watched 24/7 in a mental health hospital
- people treat you like your disabled
- When you joke about licking windows and they dont see it as a joke.
- Being watched have a shower
Who really cares, cause it's your life,You never know, it could be great,Take a chance cause you might grow.
When you realise you have to walk away from the person who means the most before you end up hurting them because of your illness *cries*
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Watching everybody around you developing important, worthwhile jobs and roles while being the sick and fragile loser on the side who cycles from problem to problem.
To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting-E. E. Cummings
RYL Family
duchesskrow-is my duck sister
*Fallen*Stars*-Is my sister
BandGeek-is my Band Roadie
bubble-car is my little sister
You watch everyone around you and you feel like you are so different...fading away...becoming so distant...
Where your illness starts to affect your health or it makes it worse.
Where you will have days where you cannot control anything, and people around you just can't seem to understand any of it, making it more frustrating and out of control, and you feel like tearing your hair out and screaming until you've no breath left...just for that one soul to try and understand...but they never will...
Oh yeah...
1:1 obs... HORRIBLE.
When I was sectioned, I had to be watched ALL THE TIME. All through the night, showers, toilet, eating, blah. Horrible.
Agreed about 1:1, those are the worst.
Luckily I was never on full bathroom obs but having someone outside the door when you're on the loo and in the shower is bad enough.
Being watched in the shower and the toilet. I didn't have a shower for two weeks in a secure unit because I didn't want them to see me naked. And I found its so hard to take a dump in the morning when there is a nurse standing in the bathroom with you and there is not even a barrier to conceal you a bit.
I was on 2:1 observation for three weeks. I had to have two nurses with me at all times. Its worse than having one nurse. I woke up one night to find two male nurses sitting right in front of me and watching me. It made me have flashbacks about the sexual abuse I was subjected to as a kid.
I was also turned into a human pincushion with all those im's. They don't seem to realise that when I am convinced that they are going to poison me with their drugs, I am not going to stop resisting and screaming my head off!
Having four policemen wrestle me down to the ground, kicking and screaming, and then tying my legs together and handcuffing me, then carrying me into the back of a riot van....I hated that so much...
</end rant about crap>
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
