Ha, the NHS one I saw is crap. She didn't even know how old I was even though she had my notes in front of me and then asked if I was doing GCSEs (I was 18). I only see one once a year anyway. Going to discharge myself next time.
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
Oh I know they're not all that bad. It's just the only one in my local area at the moment is. When I was an inpatient (NHS ward) the nurses there were lovely (although my mum hates them) so it's not that I've got anything against the NHS, just this particular psych.
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
I'm seeing a counsellor through a charity and that's really helping. To be honest, I'm doing a lot better at the moment and don't think I really need any more support. Lets hope that doesn't change!
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
Do any other borderliners feel a storm brewing before it happens?
I've got an overwhelming sense that I'm going to screw up soon and badly.
And if so, what do you do? Is there anything that helps stop you from going into full blown self destruct mode?
I dont know whats going on in my head.
Only that an uncontrollable pressure is building and the only way I can see to release it is to do some serious damage to myself.
Wow, a whole thread devoted to BPD. It's so great that there is something like this here.
I have BPD. I was diagnosed several years ago but they won't put it in my medical records or I won't be eligible for treatment. Insurance companies get testy about it apparently since there isn't a cure. I display 8 of the 9 criteria, the only one I don’t have is the whole anger thing.
I did several rounds of DBT. It saved my life. I’m also on a ton of anti-consultants, they really only help with anxiety but it’s certainly better than nothing.
I am very private about my condition and no one other than my immediate family knows. It’s difficult being as secretive as I am about it but the few people who I’ve told outside of my family I am no longer in contact with. I agree about the stigma attached to the disorder. Suddenly the reason for every problem was my BPD, every fight. It a real shame how BPD becomes a convenient excuse for everything once others know.
Hi all :) I've not read the thread yet, just wanted to introduce myself. I was diagnosed with BPD yesterday, and I'm still feeling pretty upset about it. Going to read up about it and hopefully make some sense of it all. To be honest, I don't think BPD is 'me'. I have a lot of impulse control problems, but no issues with anger, fluctuating mood, and my self-worth is stable (although very low). Oh well!
Its all or nothing
And nothings all I ever get
Every time I turn it on
I burn it up and burn it out
Ha the longer this goes on, the more I feel like I'm borderline.
I had an "episode" last night which resulted in me being taken to A+E. But the storms not ovr yet. I don't know how to stop this feeling of impending doom.
What im going to say is, bpd isnt your whole life, yes it may be part of you, but it does not define you as a person, yes it may hinder your life, but the more you dwell on it negativly the harder it is going to be to recover.
bpd dpesnt define you as a person.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
There's always hope. And the right kind of support can really help. With the help of therapy, I've got to a stable job and home. Also my emotions are on the whole steadier and more manageable. I don't have a s.o. and never have [avoidant pd stuff and PTSD...]
