It didn't matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls,
but only that we had loved them and that they hadn't heard us calling,
still do not hear us calling them from out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time,
and where we will never find the pieces to put them back together.
But I'm coming home with sympathy
I am realized, I am shamed, I choose to stay here.
There are so so so many mistakes. :) I'm way to tired to do this at the moment. I loathe my appauling work. Well the main reason for this is that my hair is a mass ball of fluff from washing it and not drying it properly. :p it's not attractive.
I just wanted to apologise for not uploading here for awhile, I've put my 365 on hold while I sort my life out things are not good at the moment, it's alot worse then It has been for months and I'm finding it really hard to cope and resist urges so my creative side is on hold while I keep resisting.
I'll be okay eventually I'm sure, I just hope I'm strong enough to not slip up.
Thank you everyone for all your support on my work and life. :)
Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it, too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
My 365 fails.
I really felt I needed to post and go on this site It's a reworked old image, I've really missed looking though it, I've just been sorting my life out really.
I've felt quite lost the last weeks or so and needed alot of thinking time and comdemplate on what to do. There is times where I just need to stop everything and get on with things I've forgotten about. So it's been quite a shock to me of what I need to do and sort out. I felt like I lost alot and gained little. So right now I want to remake everything anew and be a better person than what I was before. I'm sure life is what people make it. and I'm going to make mine the best I possibly can and try help whoever wants the same. Life is so much more than self gain, seeing other benifit is a reward in itself.
Damn yo, you got mad talent!!! I really admire your photography. I wish I know how you edited all of that. It's crazy good. I don't know anything about photography but that's mad cool. =D lol
All I did here was layer a desaturated version over the top and made it 50% opacity.
I will be adding new pictures soon, I have been taking pictures everyone day, Those ones are for me. :) I'm going to start posting everyday again soon.
My thoughts have been bouncing around alot, I had such a strange thought pattern recently that has been baffling me and I'm just going to leave it how it is and not dwell on it. I was thinking, there is what 6 - 7 billion people in the world and so many countrys and I was born here out of all the places in the world, in this area with all these people around me and when we find a person to love, people say shes the one for me, out of all the males - females in the world that person is for them. Amazing.
I could be anywhere else and so could all my friends. Is it by chance that we are all where we are? It confuses me alot. so I just take that and think, I'm going to do the best that I can with this lucky life that I have here and with all the people around me. Okay it's official, I'm weird - please some one say they have thought the same at some point in their life. :)
I posted a selfie, I looked at it and thought. . Nahhh. So what better than to change it to an amusing picture of my little brother Toby. He makes the best of faces, these were taken after me and him got bored waiting to be picked up from the hospital when he got his massive cast taken off and a smaller one put on.
This boy is the most annoying, stressful little so and so I've ever met. But. I wouldn't have him anyother way. Well maybe a little less angry and obsessive. But thats what comes with the autism. But he can be the most sweetest child ever, he sometimes comes into my room in the morning just to say 'goodmorning Jake'. :)
He had a terrible start in life with the whole thing with his father. But he's doing great now. I just with he wasn't so difficult for my mum to handle and I wish I knew how to deal with him better. I know he's not a 'normal' child but I see him just the same as everyone else. I just wish people were not so closed minded when it comes to him. It just seems very selfish to me, just because he does not act the same as everyone else does not mean people should shy away from him. And when people say he's 'sick in the head' actually makes me angry.
Breaking free from the world that pressures us to beat at its pace As my heart beats out of tune, I feel life pumping back into feeble young bones Exhilaration beckons me on for more One more fascinating rift Leaves me still
Intentions break the skin as emotion revolve in unforgiving patterns If you can hear me out right My chest hurts when I breathe tonight Bring me calm
Your presence and your absence in hopeless fusion Simple complications
Your questions unclear, Finding your love elusive I ask for more Once more; here with me I can finally breathe Strong loud proud
It didn't matter in the end how old they had been, or that they were girls,
but only that we had loved them and that they hadn't heard us calling,
still do not hear us calling them from out of those rooms where they went to be alone for all time,
and where we will never find the pieces to put them back together.
