Triggering (SI) - i miss SIing

[*..life in pain..*]

I miss it so much. i have promised my mom i won't do it again and i can't break the promise. i haven't SIed in more than 2 weeks and that is why i was in hospital, but now that im out, i want to do it so badly, but my mom will be very upset. i can't do that to her. its so hard to keep the promise as im so triggered right now.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : very triggering

i watched a video in youtube about self harm and it triggered me, i mean i saw some pictures that had very serious cuts and im kinda jealous, because mine weren't as deep as them. god, im so triggered right now.

sorry, this post is silly.

[Animad]

I'm currently just over 4 weeks free and I'm 'missing' it right now though I have no intention of starting back up with it if I can help it. It can be hard but if you keep working at it then it will get easier. Are there things you can do to help your mind focus to try and help you forgot about how tempting it can be. I know it is hard, I've been struggling recently but you can get through, you just have to stay focus upon the fact that you want to get through, it's not worth it. And, avoiding the urge to look at things that may trigger you might help loads

[Getting_There_Monkey]

Hey, i know exactly what it is like to miss it. i miss it now. but everytime i cut t does nothing for me anymore

Just ry and keep yourself distracted as much as you can :)

Can i ask a question.. Are you stopping for yourself s well as stopping for your mum? or are you just stopping because you promised your mum?

[*..life in pain..*]

just for my mom. i don't want to stop. if i had stopped for me, i would be glad that i don't SI right?

[Getting_There_Monkey]

its alway so much harder to stop for someone else because you yourself isnt ready deep down to stop. if it was for yourselfit would be easier and you would have the will power to do it and stop

Have you tried talking to your mum and letting her know that you need to do it?

[Tuesday]

i'm in a similar situation, and i really understand. it's really hard to keep from cutting sometimes...a lot of the time it feels like i'm choosing between the blade or them (my parents and best friend) ...if i cut, i'll hurt them too but i want to so bad...i'm ashamed to admit it, but as much as i love them, at the time i feel like cutting, the blade is more important :/

i think it does gradually get better though. hopefully the longer you go without cutting, the easier it will be to not cut. good luck with everything :)

[Starla]

There was some excellent advice posted so far. I don't want to sound like a broken record but I can't remember the last time I si-ed and I miss it almost everyday. Please don't let that discourage you. It definitely has gotten easier. It seems that the busier I am the less I miss it as well. I still get triggered and I still have to "fight the urge".
You need to find your own reasons to stop other than your mom. I know it is not as easy to quit for someone else. You may find yourself resenting that person for "making you quit."
I like the area on this website that gives reasons for quitting. I found them helpful and interesting.

[*..life in pain..*]

thanks. my mom thinks i don't need to do it, she believes im fine and i don't need it to control my life.

im glad im not alone.

[Porcelain Child]

It must be really hard to feel like you miss SI...

Please keep distracting yourself and talking to people...

SI doesn't need to run your life...

But apprecaite it is very hard...

*squishes*

Claire...