Triggering (SI) - Out Of Control

[Dolphin]

I can't control this anymore, at all. Even the slightest thing is setting me off at the moment. I feel so alone and worthless.

I've not cut myself bad enough to bleed yet, but I'm scared of what I might be capable of and i don't want to find out.

Help me, I can't do this anymore.

[The Stolen One]

*hugs*
its good that you have posted, you are not alone, and definatly not worthless

you dont need to SH, it does nothing but makes more problems, try and stay back from it by using healthier alternatives like squeezing ice, flicking an elastic band around your wrist etc, mainly telling yourself you can do it is a really good one

why do you feel like this?

PM me anytime
Caz x

[Dolphin]

I feel out of place, like i just dont belong anywhere anymore. I hate myself because my life seems to be such a mess and i don't see how its anyone elses fault. I feel like i'm responsible for everything thats gone wrong for me recently,and for the disfunctional nature of my family life.

[Lavender's blue]

Please try not to blame yourself for everything, feeling guilty will just drag you down. I am sure it is really hard for you right now but when I am feeling really bad about myself I try to find a way to be nice to myself and look after myself. This might make no sense but I sort of try to imagine how I would look after someone who felt the same way I do at the time and what I would say to try and make them feel better. Then I can try and say those things to myself and act that way towards myself and it stops me feeling so guilty and blaming myself for things that aren't my fault.

Also is there anyone who you could be around right now to distract you from hurting yourself or anything you could do to distract yourself maybe? Like draw or write or play computer games or watch telly or something?

I hope you feel better soon
Please take care x

[Cazki]

*Cuddles you* Im sorry your struggling. Do you have any idea of what it is that causes you to harm yourself? What is it thats making you feel this way? You are not responsible for everything that goes wrong. Try not to blame yourself for things that are not your fault as it will only make things worse for you. Do you have any support at all? Is there anyone close to you who you could talk to about how your feeling? Have you tried distractions at all? There are lots of distractions you can try such as reading, writing watching a movie, doing jobs to keep yourself busy, listening to music or you could have a look at the distractions section http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=22 there is also another link which is ryls sudoku challenge http://www.recoveryourlife.com/index.php?categoryid=13 I hope you find the links helpful. Please do keep talking to us we are always here for you.

Take care best wishes Ian

[Dolphin]

I just get so low, so lacking in self confidence. I used to be fine, happy, able to cope. Now I just cant, i dont like myself, i dont like how my life is going and half the time distractions dont really distract, only half my mind is on whatever i'm doing, the other half is hating things.

[Shane]

*hugs*
I can sympathize with how you're feeling.
I've felt and am feeling like you have been feeling.
I can tell you that SI will only numb those feelings for just a while, and you know that the pain will be back again.
I'm so sorry you have to go through all these crappy feelings.
Life throws us a lot of crap sometimes, but just think how you'll feel if you get through it without SI.
There's nothing worse then regretting something you've done.
I'm always a message away if you need some support :]