BMI/Numbers/Weight Triggers - Frick... I hate myself so much... =(
Good God... I weigh 136...
I hate it...
Four more pounds and I'll weigh 140.
Fuck.
I can't stop binging, but I want to SOOOO bad.
The only way I know how is to avoi food altogether, which is fine by me if I can pull it off. I doubt I can, but I'm gonna try.
I do not want to go back to school this big.
I want to be pretty for once in my freakin' life.
And we have to tuck our shirts in which makes me look even fatter.
Tucking my shirt in means there is NO covering up my weight gain with baggy clothes. There's no hinding the fact that I'm a hideous fat cow. And this on top of all the usual anxiety I have about these kind of situations makes it unbearable.
I don't want to die, but I feel the walls closing in, and I know it's the only escape. I want to die before I get any fatter.
And the funny thing is my friend and me were talking about how I used to have so much self esteem. And neither one of us can figure out what happened...
Last edited by one_step_closer : 30-07-2008 at 02:08 PM.
Reason: Added trigger label
*huge huggles*
I havent got any advice, but feel free to PM me if you want to rant, or need to talk to somone.
*hugs*
Pleae look after yourself!! xxxx
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
gosh im the same weight as you
i suffered anorexia and bulimia. i recovered. for a year i stayed pretty much the same wieght with a bmi of 20.
then i began binging as a comfort when i was upset or bored.
the only advice i can give you is to eat regularily to avoid the hunger pangs..this should prevent the binges a little.
also...eat foods high in fibre as they fill you up more.
if possible try not to have junk food near you eg, crisp, chocolate,biscuits etc, that way you cant binge on them.
if i feel i binge comming on a head for fruit...its healthy.
my last piece of advice is exercise and drinkn water.
the best way to lose weight is to do it by eating healthy, exercising and drining water.
water stops your body becomming dehydrated. your body can also confuse thirst with hunger. so drrinkn water means you should only be getting hungry when you actually need food.
I just feel so gross...
I want to die...
I'm going to the mall today with a friend and I know that won't help my self-esteem. Seeing all the pretty, skinny girls with they're boyfriends. Looking at amazing clothes that will never ever fit me...
I just want to end it soooo bad...
I HATE myself...
How could I ever let myself get this way?
hi
my recent troubles with work made me pile up a size.
it might sound silly for you, but it was huge for me as I am quite tiny.
I am not an expert but I know how it feels uncomfortable with your figure and it doesn't make a huge difference is it's about one or 5 sizes more, it's still uncomfortable.
however, our bodies tell us when something's wrong and when the weight goes up there's a reason.
I have never been a binge drinker or eater, I don't eat junk because I don't like it, but if there's a little thing I feel tu suggest you, is to switch to natural treats gradually without pushing.
like everybody with a weight problem, you need to start rearranging things gradually, with no rush, but eliminating food won't do you any good at all, it will only make your body feel worse.
you need to slowly get into a routine that you can stick to
my treats are fruit: bananas, strawberries, apples, grapes
my drinks are juices, and a little bit of wine at dinner (less than half a glass).
my stress made me pile up a size in spite of my habits so bear in mind might be the case that by switching junk with fruit you could see some good results in a reasonable time.
there's a solution to everything, when this depends on us.
any more suggestions on how to lose weight sensibly, I am here if you need
x
And nw another one of my friends is going to the mall. I love her, but she's a freakin' stick, and I'm so jealous.
I don't need this.
And it's hard to eat healthy in this household, because my parents keep so many unhealthy things around. I get exercise regularly and I drink lots of water, but it's just not enough.
I'm out of control.
I don't know how to stop.
And I'm a fucking pig.
you seem to have realised where the problem is, and that's a big step
you certainly have a way out, all you need is a little bit of help
there's also loads of slimming classes around which can be a good solution to socialize along with finding additional motivation
have you tried them?
;)
Hey, you sound like me, my weight is plummeting up, i just find food a distraction to lifes problems, but it just ends up making you feel worse, i also suffer from bulimia. i just wish tht everyone just apprietiated who people are and not what they look like. It annoys me soo much how we all have to look a certain way to fit in... I dont believe in it at all, i think that as long as you are healthy, and happy with yourself that is the main thing.
In my opinion I wouldnt care if i was with a 25stone person or a 6stone person, i have come to learn that we only live once, and that we shouldnt give a shit to what others think of us.
I wish you where happy with your weight, and if its really getting you down which it is... you should get some help in a encouraging way. I dont know how many stone you weigh, but whatever it is please try not to worry about going back to school. Everyone is beautiful in there own way and inside beauty is far more attractive.
Take care, and feel free to pm me any time
Here is an angel of healing i drew for everyone needing that extra hope... God bless you all and i wish you a speedy recovery...
there's plenty of actresses and celebrities more curvy and just as attractive, nice, happy and successful
let's start looking at the option to have different kind of figures, not just what the media propose as beauties
(frankly... I find Kate moss pretty ugly and unhealthy)
I don't care as much how other people look, but I just want to be thin, and it's so hard when all you're friends are smaller and can fit in to all the clothes you want to, but never will.
One of my friends was actually whining about not fitting into an extra small. She actually DID ift into it, but she was afraid it would shrink in the wash. I was lucky if I fit into an extra large in the particular store I was in. I almost didn't.
There were so many times today when I almost cried.
I just want to be thin enough to fit into something that looks half decent. I want to be thin enough to where I can have fun shopping and not worry about my weight or how I look.
I feel so horrible...
Try not to get too upset, weight isn't the end of the world, it comes and goes. If you want to loose weight just make sure and do it properly and like 88shelz said binge on fruit and try and avoid too much junk food, but a little wont harm you. Pm me if you need to talk xx
So Kill me with the love you never gave...
Scarlet tissues and empty pill packs,
she lay there motionless, theres no going back.....
Here is an angel of healing i drew for everyone needing that extra hope... God bless you all and i wish you a speedy recovery...
