i'm tired-venting *triggering*

[ilovehim]

i am so f***ing tired of my mom. seriously, she's crazy. i'm 18 and according to her, i need a babysitter still. wtf is that? she's afraid that my bf and i will have sex in her house. we don't do that. she claims that she is this all mighty christian, even though she goes out and has sex with men she just met. if i do remember correctly, god does frown upon sex with some old hairy man.
i'm about ready to slit my throat.
i'm really about ready to go insane.
i've been thinking a lot lately about moving out, but i know that if i do, my mom will degrade me to the rest of my family. and i will always be known as the black sheep in the family.
i was doing so good. i hadn't cut in almost 6 months, and then one day my mom flipped out on me and i lost it. i'm such a failure...

thanks for listening guys. you guys are amazing!

lisa lynn

[Jayda]

Sounds rough. Though if you are 18 and capable of caring for yourself, then there really isn't any reason you shouldn't move out, especially if staying at home is detrimental to your health. And if your family has any sense of their own, they won't believe lies your mother says. Just keep in touch with them and they won't care what negativity your mother spreads about you. You are 18, and you have to do what is best for you and your health. You're not abandoning anyone, you're just finding your own free space. Hope all goes well.