in happier news yesterday i completed my 3 month without SI.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
*pounces on ash*
welcome backkkkkkkk <3
glad you're doing good, always here if you wanna chat
x
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
hi littlesheep!
my pm box is always open! i know its confusing when you first join lol =)
oh...and ashleighbean...that's great! i'm figuring out that its not as easy as i thought it would be lol =/ but i know in the end it will be worth it =)
okay. i guess i'll post a real into this time...=]
sometimes i'm not comfortable introducing myself as a christian. not because i'm embarrassed about god, but because i really don't think it describes me. or...well, i believe. let's put it that way. i'm a follower of Jesus. but i am not what people think of christians as so much of the time. i don't claim to be perfect or better than anyone, and i don't look down on anyone who isn't a christian. i just believe that they must be really unhappy, but i'm not fit to judge their choices, because it takes a lot of courage to learn to trust, to open up and admit that you're alive and let god in. it's terrifying to have someone see you exactly as you are, even if you have the promise that you'll be loved anyway, because so many of us don't believe in love anymore. but that's the only real love, the only time someone really loves *you*. am i making sense? what i'm learning is faith, by which i mean trust, i guess. i'm learning that faith means making the descision to trust god even when it seems like the world is collapsing beneath you. and when the voice in the back of your mind starts telling you that you're worthless and don't deserve to be loved and that god must be angry at you and that you BETTER make up for whatever it is you messed up...it means not cutting, not hating yourself, not starving or purging, not walking down dark streets alone at night in some misguided attempt at atonement, at some attempt to earn god's love. it means saying, 'no. no matter what it feels like, i will choose to believe'--to believe that blood was shed, though not your own, and it was enough.
and it will always be enough.
that's what i'm learning and i know i'm not alone. maybe the people at church look down on you when they hear you cut--that's their problem. please don't think that God feels that way. he doesn't hate you because you're hurting--he only wants to heal you. it's what he's been doing in my life. it really IS a miracle i'm still here. i know you probably have heard that a million times from a million people like i have, but one day you'll be able to say it yourself, and feel this amazement. recently someone said to me, "you know, when i met you"--i was 12 then--"you were so self-destructive that i was sure you wouldn't live through the year." I'm 18 now. I've been SI free for 7 months. Miracles are real. Yeah, there are days that I still hurt like hell inside, but it's temporary because God is healing my soul.
yours too, if you'll let him.
...well that was a bit of a rant. i only meant to introduce myself! =] and i guess i did.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
@aquatickitten that is soo true. Your description of your faith is true christianity
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.Psalm 103:12 (NIV)
8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— 9not by works, so that no one can boast.Ephesians 2:8-9 (NIV)
Last edited by Freedom Fighter : 02-07-2008 at 06:57 PM.
Reason: updating info/spelling
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
you're welcome, guys. and here i was thinking i had just gotten carried away again =]
caried away? never
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
