Is it OK to feel some comfort while being sutured

[Tomorrowwillcome]

I was stitched by my GP yesterday and she has done a few in the last two weeks, she said she thought I was doing it to be stitched by her even though I have wounds that she was not there for.

I think I am cutting more because I am addicted to the feelings I get and there is the added benefit of gaining comfort when the wounds are stitched, I think there is more comfort gained from her than from other doctors but that is only because she is a nice doctor whereas A&E have less pleasant ones and pretty awful nurses.

I am going to try to talk to her next week but don't know if I should admit I get comfort as I am afraid she might refuse to suture me again.

Does anyone else gain comfort from being put back together.

[one_step_closer]

I can understand where you are coming from, we all long for comfort and for someone to look after us and make things better. Self harming to be stitched up by someone who cares is a dangerous way of getting this comfort though. Is there anyone around who might be able to help you when you are at your lowest points and create a feeling of comfort for you? It sounds as if you have a good relationship with your GP and that because you don't feel so good when you are seen by the A&E nurses that you really are mostly self harming for the feeling of being helped by someone you trust.

How else might you be able to ask for support and comfort without self harming? I think it would be a good idea to tell your GP how you are feeling, she might be able to refer you to someone who can provide a supportive relationship. Of course, I don't think that your GP will feel good about you self harming in order to be helped by her but it is her job to take care of your medical needs when you require attention. I really hope that you can find a safer way of finding a close and comforting relationship. Please get in touch any time. Take care. xxx

[Tomorrowwillcome]

I think you've missed the point a bit. I do not injure myself to receive treatment from anyone. It is the only coping mechanism I have as I, according to my therapist, have not been taught any. I suffer from depression and anxiety and it is this that leads me to s/h and this is the first bout of s/h that has been treated medically before in other bouts I've never told anyone. It is just that I've found that there is an element of comfort when I'm sutured, like a child been given a plaster. I find I get 99.9% recurring of comfort from the injury itself it's a minute amount from being sutured, but your reply certainly suggests how easy it is to misinterpret words so I think it wise not discuss it with my GP in case she feels she is best places not being my GP

I just wanted to know if others felt this and was it OK to feel this

[one_step_closer]

I did understand that your initial reasons for self harming are as a coping mechanism, I just wanted to see if you could explore ways of feeling additional comfort so that perhaps you would no longer even need SI as a coping mechanism. Of course it's 'ok' to feel like you do, any feelings are ok and real for whoever is having them. I hope that you can find coping mechanisms other than SI. Stay safe. xxx